remember to breathe.
i painted a
pumpkin today. decorated a hat for it and everything. i felt like i did
when i was 5..it was amazing. i miss the simple things...and just
appreciating them, you know? why does everything always have to be
about something else. it was so nice to feel like nothing mattered as
long as i was painting the stupid little face on the pumpkin...focusing
on getting the details perfect.
i love fall. i used to hate it. i don't really know why anymore...but there's just something about it now that makes me feel better. the smell in the air, the way people start to act more like a family, and less like enemies, the way you miss people and they miss you too. there's a complete change and i notice it in everyone, whether it be good or bad. nick d. told me the other day, that i looked extremely depressed, and i guess you could say that i was. but for reasons i doubt anyone would understand. it upsets me that everyone takes everything for granted. i want to change. i do. i am. we all are. it's right there in front of me. us. everywhere. you just have to know what to look for.
i love fall. i used to hate it. i don't really know why anymore...but there's just something about it now that makes me feel better. the smell in the air, the way people start to act more like a family, and less like enemies, the way you miss people and they miss you too. there's a complete change and i notice it in everyone, whether it be good or bad. nick d. told me the other day, that i looked extremely depressed, and i guess you could say that i was. but for reasons i doubt anyone would understand. it upsets me that everyone takes everything for granted. i want to change. i do. i am. we all are. it's right there in front of me. us. everywhere. you just have to know what to look for.