boys.. ugh.
i've come to the conclusion that i just don't want to make up my mind. i think i could have a boyfriend right now.. if i really wanted to. well, i sort of know. and i know i always said i wanted one. but once it's gotten to that point, that one point right now, where i feel like relationships are so overrated, i don't want the baggage. is that bad? i don't like feeling trapped. and with this one, i think i'd feel suffocated all the time. lately, i've been thinking about the whole, "it's only for the chase" thing. and that's the position i'm in right now.
and then there's the other guy. the one that isn't serious all the time, but knows when to be. that i can goof around with or be upset with. and i think that's what i want. but how do i know, since i change my mind every time i get it? but right now, i think that's what i want. and i can deal with my mind changing. i don't want anything to be predictable...and with this one, i'm pretty sure he's a safe bet.
ah, drama. it's all going to hell when he gets back. i know it.
and then there's the other guy. the one that isn't serious all the time, but knows when to be. that i can goof around with or be upset with. and i think that's what i want. but how do i know, since i change my mind every time i get it? but right now, i think that's what i want. and i can deal with my mind changing. i don't want anything to be predictable...and with this one, i'm pretty sure he's a safe bet.
ah, drama. it's all going to hell when he gets back. i know it.