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back at work today. I went to vegas Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm not quite sure what the he'll my problem is but I guess that I think I'm some sort of person who is into this kind of thing. I mean I am not über social nor am I a gambling addict and my drinking isn't enough of an issue to make me seek out vegas. I enjoy the charade I suppose. I go there and I can be surrounded by people and be completely alone and it's ok. I think it's comforting to know I can look around and treat myself and be self indulgent without guilt or people judging. But it's not really that either. I have a blast eberytime I go. I'm pretty sure this isn't healthy and eventually my body or wallet is going to give out on me. My luck carried me well this time around and my visits to the craps and blackjack tables funded the club and my shopping. It was a strange feeling carrying two rather unimportant clay chips with such high denominations. I went into my new favorite store and bought a pair of jeans and two shirts. Pure at Caesar's was insane. Mike Tyson was there along with some of the pussycat dolls. How fucking weird.... Last note on the subject is that I'll be back next weekend for the smashing pumpkins concert.
Been playing the looking back and forward game. I love to look back and see how much things have changed, especially with myself. I have always been in the most random of spots and I would never believe that any of this would have happened if you told me five years ago. You know though, I've never been unhappy. I've obviously been sad but damn I have had so many good times. I honestly can't wait for the next five years. Maybe I'll have a degree and be living in a new state. Maybe I'll get off my ass and use this passport to travel. Maybe I'll be married. People change in such strange ways. I'm glad I have started to settle into who i am and i know my core is still the same. I can't help but grin while thumbing this out. I can't wait for all of it.
Been playing the looking back and forward game. I love to look back and see how much things have changed, especially with myself. I have always been in the most random of spots and I would never believe that any of this would have happened if you told me five years ago. You know though, I've never been unhappy. I've obviously been sad but damn I have had so many good times. I honestly can't wait for the next five years. Maybe I'll have a degree and be living in a new state. Maybe I'll get off my ass and use this passport to travel. Maybe I'll be married. People change in such strange ways. I'm glad I have started to settle into who i am and i know my core is still the same. I can't help but grin while thumbing this out. I can't wait for all of it.