break up with Travis
ok so I'm very sad
like just no feeling sad
going to the store buying magazine
sitting here trying not to think about the fact I just broke up with Travis
think about two years ago I wrote an entry how I was laying in bed crying cause I lost him to brenna and he'd never want me
2 years later I have him but I'm not happy with him
we all know my reasons for that
hit moving away to nova scotia
fuck him
i mean he needs that
awww poor me ...blaaa
so I cut
yep couldn't take it
I cut
one nice thick dozy of one
all I care about at this point is being thin
my reason for this is control
I will control my weight gain and control my heart
my goal 88 pounds
thats my lowest weight
continue...
a few hours later
actually I do like being with him
in his arm
hi promise
the way he looks at me
how hes down to earth
but he is leaving
he sent me this in reply to my break up
"oh, well i'll be in town next week so i'll stop by."
I'm happy I won't lose a friend
but i'm still losing him
I'm setting him free
we have been through so much
we are letting each other slip through each others fingers
But I have to let him
got to let him improve hi life
I have to let him go his way for his own life journey
not be selfish
....just can't believe I cut...I was doing so good...
bought the magazines
all tomorrow till I go to brennas...thinspo book
oh and brenna never has to find out about Travis....thats my business...
xoxo
chrisa
like just no feeling sad
going to the store buying magazine
sitting here trying not to think about the fact I just broke up with Travis
think about two years ago I wrote an entry how I was laying in bed crying cause I lost him to brenna and he'd never want me
2 years later I have him but I'm not happy with him
we all know my reasons for that
hit moving away to nova scotia
fuck him
i mean he needs that
awww poor me ...blaaa
so I cut
yep couldn't take it
I cut
one nice thick dozy of one
all I care about at this point is being thin
my reason for this is control
I will control my weight gain and control my heart
my goal 88 pounds
thats my lowest weight
continue...
a few hours later
actually I do like being with him
in his arm
hi promise
the way he looks at me
how hes down to earth
but he is leaving
he sent me this in reply to my break up
"oh, well i'll be in town next week so i'll stop by."
I'm happy I won't lose a friend
but i'm still losing him
I'm setting him free
we have been through so much
we are letting each other slip through each others fingers
But I have to let him
got to let him improve hi life
I have to let him go his way for his own life journey
not be selfish
....just can't believe I cut...I was doing so good...
bought the magazines
all tomorrow till I go to brennas...thinspo book
oh and brenna never has to find out about Travis....thats my business...
xoxo
chrisa