My eating disorder story with pictures

[anorexic_witch]

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My tummy hurt
I'v got myself all worked up over my boyfriend Travis that I couldn't eat supper
its kind of a good thing
but I hate this feeling
I got my self all worked up
I miss him so fucking much
Its been 12 days I think
I barely talk to him
this is not a relationship
were both to immature for this
we both want different things
and the distance
he's leaving in feb
I know what this is
this is just two best-friends caught up in old feelings
just went with the flow
I don't doubt he cares deeply for me
but I care deeply
its just
its me
I can't do this
I can't be in a relationship
I can't get attached and then he leaves
I'm not stable enough
If I end it now or he does
then it makes sense
I want to cry
I can feel my self getting attached in a girlfriend way
not in a best-friend
and that scares me
what did I get my self into
omg doubt
doubt is killing me
ok totally over reacting but
gosh I need a smoke

Me: " what if I want to run away, then i'm sorry."
Travis :" I won't let you, now that I have you i'm not letting you slip away."

maybe if I workout and have a smoke and a bath then a smoke then sleeping pill this will all go away.

fuck I just want him in my arms

I'm not used to this feeling