I decided to start recording my thoughts and ideas about my fics. Right now it’ll just be for anything posted in 2007-onwards.
Little Miss Goldilocks:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3463678/1/ - read the fic first!
After I submitted this fic for GTA it occurred to me that it wasn’t really in my “natural” writing style, but then I realised I hadn’t written enough to have developed much of a style at all. :P
The fic was inspired by two lines I overheard one day: “Every day is Friday the 13th for some of us...” and “...little miss Goldilocks.” Looking back, I think the only reason it was originally about Lili at all was that she’s got blond hair (in curls? I might be confusing fanon with canon).
(Side note: I do believe Lili is deeper than the stereotypical bimbo she is in canon. She is quite possibly one of my favourite characters to write, although she might cease to be if Colfer gives her enough screen time in AF6 and shows her with some depth. I still haven’t made a final decision on how to characterise her, and I like it that way. I was once planning a Lili-centric fic featuring all my vastly different and contradictory characterisations of her and then showing how they were all just facets of her true self, but I gave up on the idea.)
In this fic, Lili is a sneaky vamp who puts up a front of naïveté so that men dismiss her as the standard innocent maiden. Then, once they’ve become charmed by / infatuated with her, she secretly manipulates them for her own (usually ambitious) purposes, leading everyone to believe she’s extraordinarily lucky when really she’s just orchestrating everything. When she’s gotten what she wanted, she breaks their hearts ever so slyly that they’re left believing it was their own fault. The narrator of the fic is one of those men still hopelessly smitten with her and kicking himself for not being good enough for her.
The biggest problem with the fic? None of that characterisation got through, I think. Except for the “of course” in the summary, there wasn’t really much indicating the unreliability of the narrator. I should have revealed it much more clearly at the end (twist endings are awesome).
I’m feeling ambivalent. I really like this idea of sneaky!manipulative!Lili, but I know I definitely didn’t show it well enough. Without understanding that the image of innocent!Lili is just the surface, the characterisation doesn’t make much sense-so far removed from canon that it’s just random. I don’t think any of the readers got it, so... *shrugs* Maybe someday I’ll rewrite it, maybe not. More likely, I’ll (re)use the idea in a later longfic.
Soon to come: notes on Optical Illusion and Tradition and Legend.