i wanna fall in love tonight
so my emotions have been a bit off the rocker lately. but a lot of my thoughts and inner monologues have revolved around relationships. or the lack of. i just finally realized that it's been about four years since i had a real relationship. those were prime years of my life i could have been dating instead of working myself to death! but i don't really regret it. but i do want to grab hold of the time i currently have and enjoy myself. a coworker sent me a really interesting article about how you find the person you're meant to be with forever and ever. not because you're in love. but because you want the same things and are willing to work things out with each other. i would like to say i kind of disagree. because of the willingness to love and work things out does the relationship grow. i think there should be some love or some emotions involved, but the inseparable love of the couple grows as you grow together which is why it's so strong. maybe i've been too dismissive in the past? i don't know about that either. but i also believe that if it was meant to be, things have a way of working out. in the meantime, i will go through the journey in stride.