biggest loser
umm... i love biggest loser, i cant help it, its amazing, but dan, the guy from my town, got kicked off, so sad!
i wish they had biggest loser for not as fat people, i think it would be awesome to be able to have all that time just to work out. it would be nice to take time off and do that. i really want to ask for a trainer for my b-day present, but i would like it before may 14 so i have time before summer hits. its really difficult to make time to be healthy when working 2 jobs and going to school full time, perhaps next year i'll have that kind of time since i will only be taking 2 classes a term instead of the normal 3 classes.
i dont know, sometimes i think i was more confident when i was heavier. i knew people liked me for who i am/was. in rock island my friends liked me for being me. now i feel like i have to impress people more. i mean i've changed some, i haven't really been into finding new music like i used to, now i collect high fashion as opposed to music. i feel like im constantly being judged here at iu. i can't share things with people here and i found the people in rock island to be so much more accepting. the people i dated (well except jon) were fine with my weight there. gah, no one wants to hear about this, not even me.
i made tabouli from scratch tonight and brownies today. the tabouli turned out really great but it did take quite some time to shell all those pistachios. aww dexter just came and sat on my feet next to me. i love my puppy!
i am really looking forward to going to the lake this year, it will be strange being the first year without any of my grandparents. i've always focused most of my time at the lake making sure i spend time with grandma or grandpa and making sure they know how much i appreciate it. this year it will be whatever i want to do, go over to culver for dinner or coffee and go for bike rides around the lake. i'll really miss them though, lake time has always been time spend with grandma and grandpa. when i was younger all summer was spent with my grandparents. i really hope my parents will invest in the cottages, it would also be great if they were remodeled by this summer.
im glad i started up this journal again, its really useful for me to vent about things.
xo
-terra
i wish they had biggest loser for not as fat people, i think it would be awesome to be able to have all that time just to work out. it would be nice to take time off and do that. i really want to ask for a trainer for my b-day present, but i would like it before may 14 so i have time before summer hits. its really difficult to make time to be healthy when working 2 jobs and going to school full time, perhaps next year i'll have that kind of time since i will only be taking 2 classes a term instead of the normal 3 classes.
i dont know, sometimes i think i was more confident when i was heavier. i knew people liked me for who i am/was. in rock island my friends liked me for being me. now i feel like i have to impress people more. i mean i've changed some, i haven't really been into finding new music like i used to, now i collect high fashion as opposed to music. i feel like im constantly being judged here at iu. i can't share things with people here and i found the people in rock island to be so much more accepting. the people i dated (well except jon) were fine with my weight there. gah, no one wants to hear about this, not even me.
i made tabouli from scratch tonight and brownies today. the tabouli turned out really great but it did take quite some time to shell all those pistachios. aww dexter just came and sat on my feet next to me. i love my puppy!
i am really looking forward to going to the lake this year, it will be strange being the first year without any of my grandparents. i've always focused most of my time at the lake making sure i spend time with grandma or grandpa and making sure they know how much i appreciate it. this year it will be whatever i want to do, go over to culver for dinner or coffee and go for bike rides around the lake. i'll really miss them though, lake time has always been time spend with grandma and grandpa. when i was younger all summer was spent with my grandparents. i really hope my parents will invest in the cottages, it would also be great if they were remodeled by this summer.
im glad i started up this journal again, its really useful for me to vent about things.
xo
-terra