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me: I have this shot glass from my senior prom, but every time I use it, it reminds me of her
bart: well, don't use it when you're drinking...
Words of wisdom... haha... sry.. this is my semi-tipsy/semi-emo post for the month...
So yea.. I'm actually not all that morose or depressed right now, which is good, cuz usually, late at night, I lay in bed, and just think, can't sleep, can't move, can't do anything but just lay there, and contemplate my life... same thing happened to me last year, close to graduation, I got real stressed out, and for about a month, I slept maybe 2-3 hours a night, and now it's back... I don't know what I'm stressed about though, I guess I'm just nervous about school, mostly... my lack of a love life hasn't been bothering me so much lately... minus the other day when I talked to a pretty girl, who was probably at least semi-interested in me, for like 1/2 hour at work, then somehow managed to let her leave w/out even asking for her number, cuz I have no confidence in myself. I've been talking to people, at work, at home, that I don't know, etc about that... nobody can understand it, I'm a salesman, which requires nothing but self confidence, cuz you're basically selling yourself, and the product you're selling comes second. Worse yet, I'm a GOOD salesman... show me another 18/19 year old who could pull 600-700 a week in commissioned sales.... so whereas I excel at selling myself at work, when it comes to selling myself to women, I fail miserably... I don't understand it, nor does anybody else... I'm not sure why I have this low self image... I mean, I know I'm funny... I know I'm caring, sensitive enough, pretty smart, not great looking, but not completely hideous...and yet, I have problems believing in myself, but it's ONLY when it comes to women... I've told people before, and you'll probably hear it again.. the only three things I've ever found in this life that scare me are Beautiful women, spiders, and heights... in that order... sad, isn't it? ok.. enough.. I'm going to bed pretty quick here....
bart: well, don't use it when you're drinking...
Words of wisdom... haha... sry.. this is my semi-tipsy/semi-emo post for the month...
So yea.. I'm actually not all that morose or depressed right now, which is good, cuz usually, late at night, I lay in bed, and just think, can't sleep, can't move, can't do anything but just lay there, and contemplate my life... same thing happened to me last year, close to graduation, I got real stressed out, and for about a month, I slept maybe 2-3 hours a night, and now it's back... I don't know what I'm stressed about though, I guess I'm just nervous about school, mostly... my lack of a love life hasn't been bothering me so much lately... minus the other day when I talked to a pretty girl, who was probably at least semi-interested in me, for like 1/2 hour at work, then somehow managed to let her leave w/out even asking for her number, cuz I have no confidence in myself. I've been talking to people, at work, at home, that I don't know, etc about that... nobody can understand it, I'm a salesman, which requires nothing but self confidence, cuz you're basically selling yourself, and the product you're selling comes second. Worse yet, I'm a GOOD salesman... show me another 18/19 year old who could pull 600-700 a week in commissioned sales.... so whereas I excel at selling myself at work, when it comes to selling myself to women, I fail miserably... I don't understand it, nor does anybody else... I'm not sure why I have this low self image... I mean, I know I'm funny... I know I'm caring, sensitive enough, pretty smart, not great looking, but not completely hideous...and yet, I have problems believing in myself, but it's ONLY when it comes to women... I've told people before, and you'll probably hear it again.. the only three things I've ever found in this life that scare me are Beautiful women, spiders, and heights... in that order... sad, isn't it? ok.. enough.. I'm going to bed pretty quick here....