Angry Messages to Sam. I thought this was funny, so i'm sharing.
E-mail I sent to Sam:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CPrzNr1b14
Mean By Taylor Swift.
Lyrics:
You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, pickin' on the weaker man
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know
Analysis:
When i am already feeling like shit about myself, the last thing i need is someone else also telling me i am shit. I know what the fuck i do wrong, and only i know what to do to fix it, so there is no reason i need you of all people to tell me.
Lyrics:
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Analysis:
You know i am going to be great one day, and you're missing out on being with some one who is truely amazing just because you're weak and can't handle yourself under pressure. you just boil over and blow up over nothing and you are just mean. You obviously learned a little something from Melissa about how to be a total asshole.
Lyrics:
You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again
I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know
Analysis:
You lied to me and you thought it was nothing. You knew that i can't stand liars, and yet, you still for some reason thought it was okay to lie to me and humiliate me by having to explain that you were, then weren't coming. by having to explain to people how i was having one of the worst days of my life because you had lied to me. I don't want to think about you any more and the only songs that remind me of you anymore are songs about jerks who fucked it up by lying and cheating. I know you got pushed around by that bitch, and you can go back to her like i heard you did last Saturday all you want....but your leave and come back cycle is ending with me, i will never trust you again, and i will never let you speak mean words to me. You don't know what i am doing, and i hope that kills you.
Lyrics:
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing
Analysis:
Back to you missing out. Just kicking yourself about how bad you screwed up by lying to me and leaving me and like a selfish little bitch you wanted the best of both worlds. I know i am way too good for you.
Lyrics:
But all you are is mean
All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Analysis:
This is the end of the song and it all just repeats. You told me you were an asshole and i thought you were just being hard on yourself, but its true. You're the worst kind of boy, a liar, a cheater, a manipulate. You're just mean. And you're going to be lonley for a long time. unless you go back to that bitch that's just as pathetic as you are.
The conversation preceding
1:52 PM me: I just wanna know if you got that e-mail.
1:56 PM sam: i did... i know you probably won't believe me and want nothing more than to never speak to me again but, i'm working through a twelve step program... and i've made progress... i've still slipped and had weak points and will coninue to and there will be a time to make ammends to you and everyone else i've harmed and i know you don't want to hear that and im not ready for it but, i don't want to be like i am anymore anna
2:00 PM me: progress my ass. you don't go and sleep with someone who is poison that you said you weren't talking to when you're making progress. you're a hypocrite and no better than i am.
2:02 PM sam: part of my recovery is setting boundries this is were i've struggled with the most... being able to say "this is what friends do, this is what friends do not do" i know you aren't much into the whole god thing but i've prayed... and asked for the power to set those boundries... the further along i go the more and more it grates me that i can't set them... i will set them and i will stick to them because without them i'm not going to recover
2:06 PM me: uugh just hearing you make excuses and your bullshit is making me feel sick
2:08 PM sam: i'm sorry you feel that way. i will do this anna. and i will recover.
2:09 PM me: for your sake i hope you do whatever it is you think that will make you "better"
2:10 PM but as far as i'm concerned i was wrong... and no matter how you think you've changed i don't think i will ever be able to not feel completely hurt when i think of everything we had...
2:15 PM sam: again im sorry you feel that way and there will come a time to make ammends for what i've done but, not now i've not done what i need to be able to do to be able to do that without failing into a rescue patern. right now i need to be away and alone. i've struggled with my boundries with melissa but i will have the power to draw them to be able to say that i need to be away and alone. to be able to be me for me. to not try to control others, to not depend on others for my happiness, and feel responsible for what others do and become angry victimized and responsible when they dont. i will do this anna
2:16 PM me: glad you think you will, cause i don't think you will ever change.
2:17 PM i can't even express how incredibly angry you have made me, how depressed you have made me, how horribly you have broken me down. and telling you to never talk to me was like lifting a black foggy cloud out of my life.
2:18 PM and i can't believe for even a second i was even worried about you, because after i heard you slinked back to her yet AGAIN i was just sick and angry.
2:22 PM sam: i will work on my boundries anna. i will for myself. and right now anna i don't need to be the black cloud in your life. i don't need to be in anyones life until i can learn to form healthy relationships again. i need my space and time tow ork on my problems but i will fix them because i've noticed a change in myself already. and i know its going to be too much to ask but, if you feel angry, upset, or if by some irrational thought worry about me... i want you to just pray for me anna... i know you don't believe much in god but right now the belief that something greater than myself is able to get me trhough this and heal me of my problems has helped me so much...
2:23 PM me: It's good jesus has forgiveness for you, cause all mine has run out.
2:24 PM and God never listened to me, and doesn't care about anything you or i say to him. just so you know.
2:29 PM sam: im sorry you feel like that... i think right now i need to be alone and away... so i think we should continue to limit our contact... and if you do change your mind at some point about the god thing... i'd still apreciate it... but for right now... i think we need to limit our contact... just remember that i will recover anna and ill do it for myself because i don't want to be like i was/am anymore... so until then (or at least until i've said my amends) bye anna...
2:30 PM me: hah. Good riddance.
2:47 PM me: OH i almost forgot. Don't you ever fucking talk about me on WoW again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CPrzNr1b14
Mean By Taylor Swift.
Lyrics:
You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, pickin' on the weaker man
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know
Analysis:
When i am already feeling like shit about myself, the last thing i need is someone else also telling me i am shit. I know what the fuck i do wrong, and only i know what to do to fix it, so there is no reason i need you of all people to tell me.
Lyrics:
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Analysis:
You know i am going to be great one day, and you're missing out on being with some one who is truely amazing just because you're weak and can't handle yourself under pressure. you just boil over and blow up over nothing and you are just mean. You obviously learned a little something from Melissa about how to be a total asshole.
Lyrics:
You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again
I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know
Analysis:
You lied to me and you thought it was nothing. You knew that i can't stand liars, and yet, you still for some reason thought it was okay to lie to me and humiliate me by having to explain that you were, then weren't coming. by having to explain to people how i was having one of the worst days of my life because you had lied to me. I don't want to think about you any more and the only songs that remind me of you anymore are songs about jerks who fucked it up by lying and cheating. I know you got pushed around by that bitch, and you can go back to her like i heard you did last Saturday all you want....but your leave and come back cycle is ending with me, i will never trust you again, and i will never let you speak mean words to me. You don't know what i am doing, and i hope that kills you.
Lyrics:
Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing
Analysis:
Back to you missing out. Just kicking yourself about how bad you screwed up by lying to me and leaving me and like a selfish little bitch you wanted the best of both worlds. I know i am way too good for you.
Lyrics:
But all you are is mean
All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?
Analysis:
This is the end of the song and it all just repeats. You told me you were an asshole and i thought you were just being hard on yourself, but its true. You're the worst kind of boy, a liar, a cheater, a manipulate. You're just mean. And you're going to be lonley for a long time. unless you go back to that bitch that's just as pathetic as you are.
The conversation preceding
1:52 PM me: I just wanna know if you got that e-mail.
1:56 PM sam: i did... i know you probably won't believe me and want nothing more than to never speak to me again but, i'm working through a twelve step program... and i've made progress... i've still slipped and had weak points and will coninue to and there will be a time to make ammends to you and everyone else i've harmed and i know you don't want to hear that and im not ready for it but, i don't want to be like i am anymore anna
2:00 PM me: progress my ass. you don't go and sleep with someone who is poison that you said you weren't talking to when you're making progress. you're a hypocrite and no better than i am.
2:02 PM sam: part of my recovery is setting boundries this is were i've struggled with the most... being able to say "this is what friends do, this is what friends do not do" i know you aren't much into the whole god thing but i've prayed... and asked for the power to set those boundries... the further along i go the more and more it grates me that i can't set them... i will set them and i will stick to them because without them i'm not going to recover
2:06 PM me: uugh just hearing you make excuses and your bullshit is making me feel sick
2:08 PM sam: i'm sorry you feel that way. i will do this anna. and i will recover.
2:09 PM me: for your sake i hope you do whatever it is you think that will make you "better"
2:10 PM but as far as i'm concerned i was wrong... and no matter how you think you've changed i don't think i will ever be able to not feel completely hurt when i think of everything we had...
2:15 PM sam: again im sorry you feel that way and there will come a time to make ammends for what i've done but, not now i've not done what i need to be able to do to be able to do that without failing into a rescue patern. right now i need to be away and alone. i've struggled with my boundries with melissa but i will have the power to draw them to be able to say that i need to be away and alone. to be able to be me for me. to not try to control others, to not depend on others for my happiness, and feel responsible for what others do and become angry victimized and responsible when they dont. i will do this anna
2:16 PM me: glad you think you will, cause i don't think you will ever change.
2:17 PM i can't even express how incredibly angry you have made me, how depressed you have made me, how horribly you have broken me down. and telling you to never talk to me was like lifting a black foggy cloud out of my life.
2:18 PM and i can't believe for even a second i was even worried about you, because after i heard you slinked back to her yet AGAIN i was just sick and angry.
2:22 PM sam: i will work on my boundries anna. i will for myself. and right now anna i don't need to be the black cloud in your life. i don't need to be in anyones life until i can learn to form healthy relationships again. i need my space and time tow ork on my problems but i will fix them because i've noticed a change in myself already. and i know its going to be too much to ask but, if you feel angry, upset, or if by some irrational thought worry about me... i want you to just pray for me anna... i know you don't believe much in god but right now the belief that something greater than myself is able to get me trhough this and heal me of my problems has helped me so much...
2:23 PM me: It's good jesus has forgiveness for you, cause all mine has run out.
2:24 PM and God never listened to me, and doesn't care about anything you or i say to him. just so you know.
2:29 PM sam: im sorry you feel like that... i think right now i need to be alone and away... so i think we should continue to limit our contact... and if you do change your mind at some point about the god thing... i'd still apreciate it... but for right now... i think we need to limit our contact... just remember that i will recover anna and ill do it for myself because i don't want to be like i was/am anymore... so until then (or at least until i've said my amends) bye anna...
2:30 PM me: hah. Good riddance.
2:47 PM me: OH i almost forgot. Don't you ever fucking talk about me on WoW again.