in hollywood...
Yesterday I saw the 'Hollywood' sign for the first time in my life - from the stairs of a 2.8 million dollar home that was insanely beautiful.
Yesterday I spent the last $150 I had on medication for my rabbit.
Yesterday I wrote a new song - first in about a month.
Yesterday I talked to Kyler about how much we miss each other. (oh how i wish i could be in nashville now!)
Yesterday I spent the evening with a wonderful person who bought my rabbit banannas and grapes.
Yesterday I let go of almost all of my inhibitions.
This morning I woke up and had coffee with a really good friend, in a place that I feel 'at home'.
This morning I gave Laika medicine and watched as he went from 'active' to 'nauseas' - again.
This morning I got a couple of really good hugs.
This afternoon I wrote a letter to someone who should hate me.
This afternoon I left my new song on Kyler's voicemail.
This afternoon I went to my job as an aide for a cerebral palsy child - and she brought me back a crystal from Hawaii.
This afternoon I got to use a Aluminum PowerBook G4. (writing this from there now.)
Hollywood, LA, the Valley - this place has been so terrible, and yet such a learning experience. I can't read the signs. Do I stay or do I go? I've never worked so hard in my life - and yet, I can't get caught up on money.
But I can't say that I'm entirely unhappy. Like I've said before: I'm just as happy as any person. Happiness comes in waves - in moments. I have my moments.
A fairy said, "so this is what it's like to be human.. if i had known, i would have given up perfection long ago."
There's beauty in the madness. Understanding is not always a promised afterthought of chaos...
... but 'acceptance' is the center of all life.
Yesterday I spent the last $150 I had on medication for my rabbit.
Yesterday I wrote a new song - first in about a month.
Yesterday I talked to Kyler about how much we miss each other. (oh how i wish i could be in nashville now!)
Yesterday I spent the evening with a wonderful person who bought my rabbit banannas and grapes.
Yesterday I let go of almost all of my inhibitions.
This morning I woke up and had coffee with a really good friend, in a place that I feel 'at home'.
This morning I gave Laika medicine and watched as he went from 'active' to 'nauseas' - again.
This morning I got a couple of really good hugs.
This afternoon I wrote a letter to someone who should hate me.
This afternoon I left my new song on Kyler's voicemail.
This afternoon I went to my job as an aide for a cerebral palsy child - and she brought me back a crystal from Hawaii.
This afternoon I got to use a Aluminum PowerBook G4. (writing this from there now.)
Hollywood, LA, the Valley - this place has been so terrible, and yet such a learning experience. I can't read the signs. Do I stay or do I go? I've never worked so hard in my life - and yet, I can't get caught up on money.
But I can't say that I'm entirely unhappy. Like I've said before: I'm just as happy as any person. Happiness comes in waves - in moments. I have my moments.
A fairy said, "so this is what it's like to be human.. if i had known, i would have given up perfection long ago."
There's beauty in the madness. Understanding is not always a promised afterthought of chaos...
... but 'acceptance' is the center of all life.