My modern day When Harry met Sally
"Harry: I've been doing a lot of thinking, and the thing is, I love you.
Sally: What?
Harry: I love you.
Sally: How do you expect me to respond to this?
Harry: How about, you love me too?
Sally: How about, I'm leaving?
Harry: Doesn't what I said mean anything to you?
Sally: I'm sorry, Harry. I know it's New Year's Eve. I know you're feeling lonely, but you just can't show up here, tell me you love me, and expect that to make everything all right. It doesn't work this way.
Harry: Well, how does it work?
Sally: I don't know, but not this way.
Harry: How about this way? I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Sally: You see? That is just like you, Harry. You say things like that, and you make it impossible for me to hate you, and I hate you, Harry. I really hate you. I hate you.
[They kiss]"
Three years ago, in two seperate blogs posts, written then because I knew that I would need to go back to them as a reference I said:
"All I can really conclusively say about Justin is that being around him just makes me smile."
"I'm pretty sure...somewhere down the road, years from now, because Winnipeg is so fucking small, and we went to fucking pre-school together, I'll end up marrying the skinny fucker one day. As of right now, I predict 6 years down the road."
I haven't see Justin since August 2009. We spend this past weekend together at my cottage.
I told Justin yesterday that we are the modern day When Harry met Sally. Except our ending hadn't been written. In something out of the movies, on our way home from the lake, on the side of the road in the middle of a country field, he declared that he's in love with me and he didn't truly realize it until this weekend. He's never felt as comfortable with another human being as he does with me and we can pick up from where we left off after not seeing each other for years. He can tell me his deepest secrets that he hasn't told anybody else. That he's known it all along, and by us spending time together again it's just confirmed his feelings.
I've probably been in love with Justin since I was 15, and I'm still in love with him, but I need to walk away. In my post 3 years ago I predicted that we would get married and I don't doubt that it still may happen. But I hate him for not loving me when I was ready 3 years ago. I love him so much for not letting us be a one night stand, but I was ready then and he stood me up. He walked away.
If I'm going to be with Justin, I need to be with him 100%, and right now, emotionally that's not something I can do. Our history is long, our roots are deep and we have an even deeper connection. If I allow myself to love him, I want to love him with every ounce of my being, and I need to know that we will be together.
I don't see that happening right now because I'm not where I need to be. I just hope that, if I call, when I call, he'll answer the phone and love me then just as much as he loves me now.
Sally: What?
Harry: I love you.
Sally: How do you expect me to respond to this?
Harry: How about, you love me too?
Sally: How about, I'm leaving?
Harry: Doesn't what I said mean anything to you?
Sally: I'm sorry, Harry. I know it's New Year's Eve. I know you're feeling lonely, but you just can't show up here, tell me you love me, and expect that to make everything all right. It doesn't work this way.
Harry: Well, how does it work?
Sally: I don't know, but not this way.
Harry: How about this way? I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Sally: You see? That is just like you, Harry. You say things like that, and you make it impossible for me to hate you, and I hate you, Harry. I really hate you. I hate you.
[They kiss]"
Three years ago, in two seperate blogs posts, written then because I knew that I would need to go back to them as a reference I said:
"All I can really conclusively say about Justin is that being around him just makes me smile."
"I'm pretty sure...somewhere down the road, years from now, because Winnipeg is so fucking small, and we went to fucking pre-school together, I'll end up marrying the skinny fucker one day. As of right now, I predict 6 years down the road."
I haven't see Justin since August 2009. We spend this past weekend together at my cottage.
I told Justin yesterday that we are the modern day When Harry met Sally. Except our ending hadn't been written. In something out of the movies, on our way home from the lake, on the side of the road in the middle of a country field, he declared that he's in love with me and he didn't truly realize it until this weekend. He's never felt as comfortable with another human being as he does with me and we can pick up from where we left off after not seeing each other for years. He can tell me his deepest secrets that he hasn't told anybody else. That he's known it all along, and by us spending time together again it's just confirmed his feelings.
I've probably been in love with Justin since I was 15, and I'm still in love with him, but I need to walk away. In my post 3 years ago I predicted that we would get married and I don't doubt that it still may happen. But I hate him for not loving me when I was ready 3 years ago. I love him so much for not letting us be a one night stand, but I was ready then and he stood me up. He walked away.
If I'm going to be with Justin, I need to be with him 100%, and right now, emotionally that's not something I can do. Our history is long, our roots are deep and we have an even deeper connection. If I allow myself to love him, I want to love him with every ounce of my being, and I need to know that we will be together.
I don't see that happening right now because I'm not where I need to be. I just hope that, if I call, when I call, he'll answer the phone and love me then just as much as he loves me now.