Withdrawals
I do not have a pet.
I do not have any pets.
I am petless.
And thus, I am sad.
I grew up on a farm. I have always had animals around me. Especially doggies. And this is the longest I have ever been without a pet. And my heart is slowly dying, because the loss is killing me! I miss my Great Dane and Chihuahua terribly because I couldn't bring them with me when I moved.
I beg my friends to bring their pets with them when they come over. Which is nice. But they aren't mine. :(
I've taken to watching a neighborhood cat, whom I've named, Condescending Cat, because he is truly the most condescending creature I have ever seen. And that's saying something, for a cat.
I'm certain he is either trying to kill me or is plotting to take over the world. Probably both. The past week when I wake up he has been either in my front yard(meadow), on my walkway, or glaring at me from his perch across the street. He has also now enlisted a couple of spies. One very obvious gray cat who is probably afraid even of mice, and one very large, thuggish looking black cat. They have been meeting in my meadow. I can tell because it looks like animals are bedding down in the tall grass, lol. >< (I really must cut it, it's inexcusable at this point.)
Anyway, that was a huge tangent. Back to my heartache. So yesterday, in my attempt to lavish affection on some living thing, I went to a local nursery intent on buying ferns. Another thing I have always had near me. I found two lovely Boston ferns to place on my front steps, and two other types of ferns to use as a background for a new garden box I started. And two "wizard mix" plant things that have beautiful colour and some itty bitty white flowers called Snowflake..something or others to set them off in the center.. I also got another, separate, tiny Pacific Maid fern to keep in the house. I'm so proud of them. The lady checking my purchases complimented the box assortment I'd made. It made me happy.
So when I got home, I arranged the box, cleaned the dirt/dust off the porch and now it looks just lovely. I keep checking it to see how pretty it is. I water them too much, i must stop that.
Anyways, this affection displacement is going to probably drive me mad. I need a pet. I know I could go to the shelter and hopefully find one but a.) I'm broke, and 2.) I like to travel so who would watch my little angel while I am away? It's not fair.. It's just not fair. :(
Maybe some hapless creature will wander over to my house and I will be forced to take care of it.
I'm sure the kibble I leave in a bowl by the front door will help. Right? :P
I do not have any pets.
I am petless.
And thus, I am sad.
I grew up on a farm. I have always had animals around me. Especially doggies. And this is the longest I have ever been without a pet. And my heart is slowly dying, because the loss is killing me! I miss my Great Dane and Chihuahua terribly because I couldn't bring them with me when I moved.
I beg my friends to bring their pets with them when they come over. Which is nice. But they aren't mine. :(
I've taken to watching a neighborhood cat, whom I've named, Condescending Cat, because he is truly the most condescending creature I have ever seen. And that's saying something, for a cat.
I'm certain he is either trying to kill me or is plotting to take over the world. Probably both. The past week when I wake up he has been either in my front yard(meadow), on my walkway, or glaring at me from his perch across the street. He has also now enlisted a couple of spies. One very obvious gray cat who is probably afraid even of mice, and one very large, thuggish looking black cat. They have been meeting in my meadow. I can tell because it looks like animals are bedding down in the tall grass, lol. >< (I really must cut it, it's inexcusable at this point.)
Anyway, that was a huge tangent. Back to my heartache. So yesterday, in my attempt to lavish affection on some living thing, I went to a local nursery intent on buying ferns. Another thing I have always had near me. I found two lovely Boston ferns to place on my front steps, and two other types of ferns to use as a background for a new garden box I started. And two "wizard mix" plant things that have beautiful colour and some itty bitty white flowers called Snowflake..something or others to set them off in the center.. I also got another, separate, tiny Pacific Maid fern to keep in the house. I'm so proud of them. The lady checking my purchases complimented the box assortment I'd made. It made me happy.
So when I got home, I arranged the box, cleaned the dirt/dust off the porch and now it looks just lovely. I keep checking it to see how pretty it is. I water them too much, i must stop that.
Anyways, this affection displacement is going to probably drive me mad. I need a pet. I know I could go to the shelter and hopefully find one but a.) I'm broke, and 2.) I like to travel so who would watch my little angel while I am away? It's not fair.. It's just not fair. :(
Maybe some hapless creature will wander over to my house and I will be forced to take care of it.
I'm sure the kibble I leave in a bowl by the front door will help. Right? :P