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In the most random parts of my day...EVERY day...I find myself pondering things. Weird things. Things like, "What if I had killed my dad like I had wanted to?"...or..."What would everyone else's lives be like had I died that night?" It's a little bit un-nerving. Just RANDOM-ASS questions...and they'll come up at random-ass times too. In the middle of class...while I'm driving...while I'm sitting right here at my computer...while I'm in trouble...and while I'm not. I suppose it's because my parents have been riding my ass pretty hard lately...and stressing me the fuck out. I guess they just don't understand that THEIR problems affect ME too. My dad is like $10,000 in debt, and my mom NEVER has money for shit...even my inhalers...and my grandma's just...old. She's a fuckin BADASS though. She works at Wal-Mart as a greeter at age 83. FUCK my life...does anyone want to trade? I'll give it to you cheap...I'll only take like...20 years of yours, and you can HAVE mine. I want something new...something more fulfilling than helping others with their problems...I want to have people help me with mine. Better yet...I want to NOT HAVE them. Good fuckin luck though. I'm going to go inflict bodily harm on myself...that should be fun.
P.S.-Like the mood Chris?
P.S.-Like the mood Chris?