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Well last night while everyone and their friends from Uranus went to the Varsity, I was in the dorm room discussing with the love of my life what we should do about our drifting relationship. For a while there, I kept thinking we were going to break up and I couldn't stop crying.
and i think the only reason he wants to stay attached to me is b/c he saw how heartbroken i would be if he left me like that. and he hates to hurt other ppls feelings.
so this gets me thinking Hey, does he really want to be in a relationship with some psycho clingy bitch? and that got me crying even more b/c i hated to think of myself doing that to him. so im sitting there dripping tears with a gross looking face and he tells me that i look pretty. so i cry even more b/c i know he's lying. and then he explains that there have been times when i looked pretty ratty and he wasn't perfectly honest with me about me looking gorgeous all the time, and that made me feel better somehow. im thinking its because he was being honest with me? idk.
so we decided we'd work harder at talking to each other and seeing each other. but i still feel bad for this. i mean, i want to stay with him so much. i love him to no end, but then he tells me his love has limits. he says he won't let love cross his taboos, so i guess i need to put the "mush" in check a little bit.
im so attached to him, but i don't think he feels the same way. and its driving me crazy and everytime i think about it, i cry a little.
i need thoughts. opinions. words other than mine
and i think the only reason he wants to stay attached to me is b/c he saw how heartbroken i would be if he left me like that. and he hates to hurt other ppls feelings.
so this gets me thinking Hey, does he really want to be in a relationship with some psycho clingy bitch? and that got me crying even more b/c i hated to think of myself doing that to him. so im sitting there dripping tears with a gross looking face and he tells me that i look pretty. so i cry even more b/c i know he's lying. and then he explains that there have been times when i looked pretty ratty and he wasn't perfectly honest with me about me looking gorgeous all the time, and that made me feel better somehow. im thinking its because he was being honest with me? idk.
so we decided we'd work harder at talking to each other and seeing each other. but i still feel bad for this. i mean, i want to stay with him so much. i love him to no end, but then he tells me his love has limits. he says he won't let love cross his taboos, so i guess i need to put the "mush" in check a little bit.
im so attached to him, but i don't think he feels the same way. and its driving me crazy and everytime i think about it, i cry a little.
i need thoughts. opinions. words other than mine