The Issues with being Poly
So, I have just recently stepped into the life of being Poly. Now this is something that I have strayed away from for years upon years. Afraid that I couldn't do it. That I couldn't handle the stress of everything that I would have to put up with. While the majority of it has been okay thus yet, I have noticed a few things that could become an issue. I know already that personal space is needed for everyone involved. Meaning that once W/we get O/our own place that there will need to be enough bedrooms so that everyone involved gets their own bedroom so that they may get their own space and time for them. Especially so that there is no need to vacate ones own bedroom just so that others can be together. That can be a serious issue. I kinda knew this already but recently when I was talking to my Daddy I realized that this was a big thing. I just finally got my own territory so to speak. While yes I share it with my Daddy and that is fine, I honestly don't think that I can share this specific area with my poly sisters. I feel utterly horrible about it. I feel like there is something wrong with me for not being able to share. Yet at the same time I feel like I am doing nothing more than ruining His life by being here because I cant seem to share that one thing.
Does it bother me that He is going to be with my poly sisters? No not really. I mean I am sure there will come a time where I really wish He was with me but He wont be able to because He will be with one of them but at the same time, There is only so much of our Daddy to go around and I understand that. I don't seem to get territorial over Him, or at least I haven't yet... but the thought of my own personal space being invaded with Him having sex with others or doing other things with others just seems to upset me.
Then the next issue that has reared its ugly head just happened a short bit ago. I was sitting here and fiddling around on LJ, Fetlife, and Facebook. Daddy had just posted some really hot pictures that He had taken of me on His fetlife account and I was like squee yay W/we finally got to share something about U/us in a public front which was really nice. Then I noticed a really sad depressing post by one of His girls, one of my poly sisters and it just sent me over the edge. I posted a sad face to her post, a frumpy message to facebook and then I logged off quickly to get the frak out of dodge. I simply did not want to deal with it any further.
Now I am being told that she is going to start doing the same thing that I have been doing which is to NOT post things that she thinks may upset me. I don't want to start causing her to have to censor herself, I have already been doing that and I know just how sucky it is to have to do that in the first place. Honestly I don't know what to do. Daddy wanted us to talk it out and I was completely willing but she cant make a phone call and facebook isn't working properly so I honestly don't know what to do in order to talk it out. I can't text the way that she can.and honestly I am not a fan of trying to text on my Daddy's cell phone. His phone kinda sucks in comparison to mine but then again He hates mine too when it comes to the texting abilities. So it's not like I can just sit here and text back and forth. Then again, texting doesn't really help either. It is very difficult to get ones emotions out on text.
Just bah! I honestly don't know what to do. I need more kink friendly friends on my livejournal so that I can talk to them about these things. I cried hard, I still want to cry. Maybe I should go post to dotpolysnark. Do loves my snark communities even if right now I don't feel like being snarky because this is a real and serious thing that I am going through. I am afraid to post on fetlife because I know she is always on fetlife. Though the link to this LJ account is posted to my fetlife, I highly doubt she has read it. If she had, she would have had a whole lot more to be jealous about and for a lot longer of a time than just this moment honestly.
Help! Someone?
Does it bother me that He is going to be with my poly sisters? No not really. I mean I am sure there will come a time where I really wish He was with me but He wont be able to because He will be with one of them but at the same time, There is only so much of our Daddy to go around and I understand that. I don't seem to get territorial over Him, or at least I haven't yet... but the thought of my own personal space being invaded with Him having sex with others or doing other things with others just seems to upset me.
Then the next issue that has reared its ugly head just happened a short bit ago. I was sitting here and fiddling around on LJ, Fetlife, and Facebook. Daddy had just posted some really hot pictures that He had taken of me on His fetlife account and I was like squee yay W/we finally got to share something about U/us in a public front which was really nice. Then I noticed a really sad depressing post by one of His girls, one of my poly sisters and it just sent me over the edge. I posted a sad face to her post, a frumpy message to facebook and then I logged off quickly to get the frak out of dodge. I simply did not want to deal with it any further.
Now I am being told that she is going to start doing the same thing that I have been doing which is to NOT post things that she thinks may upset me. I don't want to start causing her to have to censor herself, I have already been doing that and I know just how sucky it is to have to do that in the first place. Honestly I don't know what to do. Daddy wanted us to talk it out and I was completely willing but she cant make a phone call and facebook isn't working properly so I honestly don't know what to do in order to talk it out. I can't text the way that she can.and honestly I am not a fan of trying to text on my Daddy's cell phone. His phone kinda sucks in comparison to mine but then again He hates mine too when it comes to the texting abilities. So it's not like I can just sit here and text back and forth. Then again, texting doesn't really help either. It is very difficult to get ones emotions out on text.
Just bah! I honestly don't know what to do. I need more kink friendly friends on my livejournal so that I can talk to them about these things. I cried hard, I still want to cry. Maybe I should go post to dotpolysnark. Do loves my snark communities even if right now I don't feel like being snarky because this is a real and serious thing that I am going through. I am afraid to post on fetlife because I know she is always on fetlife. Though the link to this LJ account is posted to my fetlife, I highly doubt she has read it. If she had, she would have had a whole lot more to be jealous about and for a lot longer of a time than just this moment honestly.
Help! Someone?