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so I guess it's one of those nights when you sit down and think about things. It crazy, sitting here listening to old music it seems I haven't listened to in years. It's crazy how things can change almost immediately. It's like a huge chuck of my life has broken off and was lost somewhere and this new piece is growning in it's place. all I have are a few memories and so much is going on it's hard to think about it and remember what I had. and when I have the time and really think about what I had, it feels so good, I can almost feel like I'm there right now. as much as pva pissed me off and frustrated me sometimes, I wish I was there right now. dancing, some days I didn't care about anything else except dance. it felt so good. and I guess it's also remembering what I had when I was at pva. my mom. she was everything to me and I miss her so much. These are the memories that are coming back to me right now. dancing in the studio, webmastering, my mom, senior recital, picnic, prom. there's so many good things I experienced last year and I would do anything to go back. Don't get me wrong things are great right now. But you always miss what you had when you lose it, right?

I've been wanting to see video of the fall happening senior year. I might do that some time soon.