.......sigh..........
I called the vet a little while ago and I'm schedule to bring Bigley there in about an hour to have him put to sleep. He's had ups and downs over the past week or so, but he's hardly eating anything these days and he's lost a lot of weight and more importantly, he's lost that spark that he used to have. I've let him out of his bathroom confinement a bit more these last few days and he slept on my bed last night and then as I was waking up he came over and lay on my chest--a little morning routine that we'd developed but hadn't done in awhile. I talked to him (even though he's deaf) and asked his permission......I'm sure he understands on some level.
Tonight I'm leaving to spend Thanksgiving with my parents, and a friend was going to come here to feed him while I'm gone. But I would have had to keep him confined to the bathroom again and he hates being shut up in there. And I hate the thought of him being miserable for two days, especially when it was only going to be postponing the inevitable till next week anyway. I'm going to be a wreck at work today--already cried when I called to say I'd be in late, and probably I'll start bawling every time someone askes about him today. Man oh man, it's never easy, is it?
I'll be back here Fri night or Sat. It's going to be sort of a bittersweet Thanksgiving, but life goes on.
Tonight I'm leaving to spend Thanksgiving with my parents, and a friend was going to come here to feed him while I'm gone. But I would have had to keep him confined to the bathroom again and he hates being shut up in there. And I hate the thought of him being miserable for two days, especially when it was only going to be postponing the inevitable till next week anyway. I'm going to be a wreck at work today--already cried when I called to say I'd be in late, and probably I'll start bawling every time someone askes about him today. Man oh man, it's never easy, is it?
I'll be back here Fri night or Sat. It's going to be sort of a bittersweet Thanksgiving, but life goes on.