Oneshot: Roomates
Title: Roomates
Length: Oneshot
Parings: Jaeho
Genre: Smut, Romance, minor Angst
Rating: NC-17
Beta: yunho1205
Summary: Yunho fell in love with his best friend, but will his feelings be reciprocate?
A/N: hey everyone! Another Jaeho shot for all of my jaeho readers! It is a REALLY LONG shot, 30 pages in total! LJ won't let me post it that much so I decided to split it up. I disabled the comment option on this page so please post your comments on the next one. ENJOY!
PART A
Yunho was in his dorm room, the small desk lamp illuminating the books in front of him, was his only source of light. He was trying to study, but the more he tried to concentrate, the more useless it seemed. Nothing was staying in his head. His pink lips parted, sighing deeply, as he slouched on his chair, tilting his head back and staring up at the ceiling. Yunho looked at his watch. It took a few seconds for his tired and strained eyes to focus, but no wonder, it was almost midnight.
‘Why is he still not back yet?’
Yunho sat up in his chair and glanced at the photo frame sitting on the corner of his desk. He picked it up and stared at the two people in the picture, both making the shape of a heart with their arms. It was taken during a trip some time ago with some friends. Yunho framed it as a token of their friendship … which was a good excuse, but the true reason was that he treasured this photo so much because it held a special meaning to him.
And that special meaning was buried away deep inside his heart, to be revealed to no one.
Yes, he was in love with his best friend.
Yunho had fallen helplessly for the other man in the photo. Kim Jaejoong.
Jaejoong and Yunho had been dorm mates since they first started college. At that time, it was mandatory that first year students were placed in dorms at the discretion of the college, bringing Yunho and Jaejoong together as dorm mates. At first sight, Yunho couldn’t believe his eyes. It was hard to believe that such handsome man could exist in real life. Yes, that was the flawlessness known as Kim Jaejoong. Not only was he beautiful, but manly at the same time. His face was like an angel, round eyes, red lips and white skin. The face of an angel with a body built for sin. His slim waist and sculpted muscles accentuated his rugged masculinity.
The perfect combination.
They hit off immediately, becoming close friends quickly. They shared a few of the same classes, so eventually they began sharing homework, projects, and assignments with each other. They understood one another quite effortlessly, especially in terms of their opposite personalities.
Yunho was reserved but basically energetic and happy. To an outsider, he initially seemed quite shy, but was in fact very friendly and warm to everyone who came in contact with him.
Jaejoong, on the other hand, was way more outgoing. He was always the life of the party, always entertaining when he was with his friends, but to people that didn't know him, he appeared to be standoffish and almost callous.
When Jaejoong and Yunho first met, Jaejoong was well mannered and practical, but his true playful personality shone through once they became best friends.
To Jaejoong they were best friends, but to Yunho it was like love at first sight.
It was true. Yunho took a liking to the other the moment they greeted each other. He had never met someone like Jaejoong before, and instantly he wanted to know everything about him. As fate would have it, they became close friends in the past couple of years and continued to be dorm mates even though it was no longer required after their first year of college.
Sharing the same room with Jaejoong for all this time was nothing less than blissful to Yunho. He thanked God above every day for granting him such luck, however, things were not always as they seemed.
As outgoing and relaxed as Jaejoong seemed to be, it turned out that he was even more relaxed with his other friends. Yunho discovered this when he was introduced to Jaejoong's other friends. Not only were some of them into drugs and alcoholic, but they were also into promiscuity and one night stands. Fortunately, Jaejoong assured Yunho, swearing on his own family’s name, that he was not into drugs. Jaejoong did frequently smoke and drink, but he always had the ability and will power to quit if he wanted to. But the one night stands? Well, that was a different story entirely, and one that pained Yunho miserably.
Jaejoong may have had the strength to stay away from drugs and excessive alcohol, but he was definitely never one to refuse to bed anyone that wanted him. Once Yunho had realized this, he understood why there were some nights when Jaejoong wouldn't get home till the early hours of the morning.
To make matters worse, Jaejoong had no preference as to who he bedded. Whether it be a girl OR a guy, it didn't matter, as long as they were beautiful and/or hot.
But Yunho, oh he definitely had a preference.
One afternoon, after Yunho had discovered the details of Jaejoong’s ‘secret’ night life, Jaejoong had asked him what his sexual orientation was. Yunho bluntly informed Jaejoong that he liked guys, and only guys. No matter how hard Yunho had tried to appreciate a female’s beauty, it just couldn’t compete with a male’s physique. He didn’t care about long slender legs, a cute face, or big boobs, Yunho desired a man’s muscled abs, sculpted pecs, and their hard cocks.
Or in his case, Jaejoong’s pecs, abs, and especially Jaejoong's cock.
It never ceased to amaze Yunho how a guy with such a slim body could have such fine qualities…well two out of three so far. Yunho had never risked taking a look at Jaejoong’s lower body, and adamantly refused whenever Jaejoong offered to shower with him.
Yunho couldn’t even handle staring at the other’s chest for too long, too worried that any unexpected embarrassing moments would arise, well one unexpected thing to rise, literally.
At night Yunho would sometimes stare at Jaejoong when the latter was sleeping. Occasionally Jaejoong wouldn't cover himself, and Yunho would take full advantage of the sight of his boxer clad dorm mate. Yunho had had countless daydreams of the rugged outline of Jaejoong's muscles, fantasizing about touching him, feeling him, loving him.
Just imagining Jaejoong's lower body had Yunho blushing like a tomato, not to mention what it was doing to his cock!
Even so, Yunho had never let Jaejoong know about his crush on him. He didn’t want to jeopardize their friendship, because what if Jaejoong found out and no longer wanted to be his friend? He would be completely devastated.
So in conclusion, Yunho preferred to painfully watch Jaejoong with random others, rather than lose his friendship forever.
Yunho shook his head, trying to push all thought of Jaejoong away so he could concentrate on studying. Lately, studying was the only way that he could get his mind off all the ‘what-ifs’ that kept his brain occupied.
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Jaejoong unlocked the door of his dorm room and quietly peeked inside to see if Yunho had already gone to sleep. To his dismay, he saw the other sleeping, body hunched over the desk with the lamp light shining on his tired face. Jaejoong had told Yunho many times not to fall asleep at his desk like that, but he never listened. Jaejoong sighed, looking at his watch, it was half past one in the morning already. Had Yunho been studying all night? What for?
Jaejoong wasn’t sure if he should wake his roommate up, but he knew he couldn’t let Yunho sleep like that. Deciding he had no choice, Jaejoong gently tried to wake Yunho up.
“Yunho. Yunho ah, wake up. Yunho ah,” he cooed softly into the ears of the sleeping young man.
Yunho moved slightly then opened his eyes lazily. He examined his surroundings and was startled when he caught sight of two doe-like orbs staring down at him. Yunho flinched in his seat, realizing he'd been caught sleeping on his desk again.
“J-Jaejoong. Umm, you’re back,” Yunho stuttered, cursing himself for stating the obvious.
“Yeah. Why did you stay up so late again? We don’t have any tests or homework that's due, do we?” Jaejoong scrunched his nose, trying to remember if there was something that needed to be done for one of their classes.
“Oh, no. I’m just…studying for….im-improvement.” Yunho replied quickly.
‘I was really waiting for you to come home safely.’
“Oh. Well, go to bed. It’s late. Even though tomorrow is the weekend, you should still get a good night's rest.”
Yunho nodded, “Okay.”
Jaejoong walked past him and entered the bathroom. Yunho heard the sound of rushing water and knew that the other was taking a shower.
It didn't surprise Yunho that Jaejoong was showering, he had faintly detected the musky scent of sex on Jaejoong’s clothes. Yunho sighed silently and decided that he should just go to bed now that Jaejoong had safely returned. He took off his glasses and placed them on the desk, turning off the small lamp that had been burning bright all evening. Heading to his bed, he took off his shirt and pajamas pants. Leaving only his boxers on, Yunho tiredly crawled into his bed. He had gotten into the habit of sleeping in nothing but his underwear. It was a pet peeve of Yunho's to have his clothes restrict his body as he slept. He pulled the covers over his bronzed body and closed his eyes, forcing himself to sleep.
Hearing the constant flow of water from the bathroom, slowly lulled Yunho into a peaceful slumber. Minutes later, Jaejoong came out of the bathroom with only a towel wrapped around his slim waist, immediately noticing that his roommate had properly gone to bed. A serene smile gracefully appeared on his lips when he saw the calming look on Yunho’s face. He had been so worried lately since Yunho had been staying up late studying. His head buried in books till the time that Jaejoong would come home from a night of partying.
Jaejoong shrugged off whatever possibilities it could be that was keeping Yunho up so late at night. He pulled the towel off of himself, got under the covers of his bed and got comfortable. He glanced one last time at his resting roommate before almost instantly falling asleep.
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**The Dream**
“Ahhhh….ahhhh….more….faster….please….go…faster….” a deep voice moaned.
The sound of slurping echoed through the dark mysterious room. There was a bed, two naked bodies, two male naked bodies, and not much else. One of the bare bodies was laying on his back while the other was crouching very close to other’s crotch. Low quiet moans were coming from the exposed man that was squirming in pleasure on his back.
His hands were clenched to the bed sheets in a tight grip, his legs were spread as wide as the bed’s width, and his face was twisted in ecstasy. Both men were hot and sweaty, radiating intense heat into their surroundings, filling the air with the heavy essence of sex. Drops of sweat formed on their skin, sliding down their bodies from head to toe.
The needy man on his back raised one hand, clawing his fingers through the luscious hair of the man between his legs, guiding his head up and down as he lost himself in the feel of those plump lips around him. They made eye contact, and the dominant man on top smirked sexily as he continued to devour his lover.
“Hurry….hurry….please...go faster….ahhh….I’m going crazy.”
The begging man on bottom, pleaded uncontrollably for the other to suck harder, go faster, anything to help pull his orgasm up to the surface. He loved the velvety feeling of that talented tongue gliding from one side of his member to the other. Thick warm saliva coated his throbbing member with every pass deep down the other's throat.
He was going crazy with each passing second, the need to come intensifying. He felt pressure slowly rising as his breath quickened, grasping the silky hair in his hand tightly. The leading man on top sensed his lovers coming release and began to bob his head even faster.
“I’m going to come….I’m going to come….ahhh…I’m…gonna…AHHHHH!” He screamed, feeling his stomach clench as the pleasure flowed through him, coming hard in the warm tight cavern. Waves of pleasure coursed through his body like the steady current of the ocean.
Hungry and desperate, the other swallowed the tangy fluid, extracting every drop till there was nothing left. Releasing the length from his mouth, he gave it one finishing lick, cleaning up the evidence of their passion.
Moving upward, he showered the quivering stomach with butterfly kisses, taking his hardened nub between his lips and teasing it with his tongue. Once he reached his satiated lovers face, he pried the other’s lips open with his tongue, shoving it in. Their two tongues met and ravished each other, hot and passionate.
“You taste so sweet, love. Really good and delicious. We’re going to have so much fun. I’ll make you feel like you’re flying to the moon,” the top one whispered huskily.
“I already am. I want to soar even higher now.” The bottom one replied breathlessly.
The top one chuckled, “I can help you with that. But I need you to tell me how to get you there. What to do to get you to scream and beg. What can I do, baby? Tell me.”
He stroked the flaccid member to life again, rising up and standing tall. The bottom moaned conspicuously loud, shaking his head left to right, panting and gasping in the dampened air. He looked into those round orbs and was instantly mesmerized.
“Tell me,” the top one repeated again.
For several moments, no one said anything until the bottom one finally responded.
“Fuck me.”
**End of the Dream**
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Yunho opened his eyes wide. His upper body rose from the mattress immediately. Sweat was forming all over his body, glistening in the pale moonlight. His breathing was heavy and wasn’t calming down anytime soon. Once he managed to control his breathing, he closed his eyes until he regained his composure. Feeling much better he looked around the room, realizing in the darkness, that he was in his dorm room. He looked to the other side of the small space and was instantly hypnotized by the surreal sight in front of him.
Jaejoong was sleeping peacefully, glowing like a angel under the moonlight. One quick movement and Jaejoong's blanket shifted, revealing his slender body. In Yunho's eyes, Jaejoong's body was a beautiful sight, something that he would be happy to stare at forever. Yunho moved his legs under the covers, and felt something wet around his crotch area. He pulled his blanket away and gasped silently at his discovery.
His boxers had a huge wet blotch on them and he knew immediately what had happened. He sighed in frustration. He always felt ashamed after he had an erotic dream, especially after spending the entire night thinking of his roommate.
‘Stupid dream, stupid mind.’
He cursed himself over and over again but then realized that there was nothing he could do about it now. With no other option, he took the stained boxers off and shot them into the laundry basket next to his bed. He didn’t have the strength to grab another pair of underwear, so he decided to sleep naked. Pulling the blanket over himself and slowly falling back to sleep, he prayed that he wouldn’t have another sex dream.
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The next morning, the bright sunlight shined through the window and hit Yunho directly in the face. He awoke groggily and sat up. Closing his eyes, he slowly recalled everything that had happened the night before. He turned his head to the other side of the room and saw that Jaejoong's bed was unoccupied. Yunho frowned, then he heard sound of running water from the sink in the bathroom.
He sat there for a few seconds, trying to fully wake up when flashes of his dream flooded his mind. The intense body heat, the sweating, the moaning, the begging…it was all still very fresh in his mind.
He was still dazed from the embarrassment he felt last night that he didn’t notice the sound of the running water stop, and almost missed the sound of the bathroom door opening. Yunho quickly snapped out of his daze and pretended that it was just another morning. Jaejoong walked out of the bathroom with only a pair boxer briefs on. Yunho duly noted how gorgeous Jaejoong looked in the mornings. Always fresh and ready to go.
“Hey! Morning!” Jaejoong said happily.
“M-Morning.” Yunho stumbled through his response.
“Do you have any plans for today?” Jaejoong asked.
“Not exactly. Umm…I still have some more studying to do, so I guess I’ll be doing that.”
“Oh. Why don’t you come out with me and hang out? We could grab some drinks tonight. It’s been awhile since we hung out,” Jaejoong tried to remember the last time they had gone to a bar together.
Yunho's mind went blank when he heard Jaejoong mention going out. The last time they had gone out was with Jaejoong's friends. Paranoid thoughts of Jaejoong's friends being better than him invaded Yunho's mind, but what hurt more was his heart.
“Umm…sorry. I just can’t make it today. Maybe next time. I feel a bit behind on my studying and I wanted to catch up,” Yunho said, trying to excuse himself.
Jaejoong looked at him disappointedly, “Awww. Fine. Can’t be helped if you need to study. Well, if you change your mind, let me know. I’m going out for a while to run a few errands, okay?”
Yunho nodded his head then shouted, “Hey!”
“Yes?”
Yunho stayed silent for a few moments then said, “Be back soon, okay? I get kinda worried when you’re gone for a long time.” He looked down, shielding his blushing face from Jaejoong.
Jaejoong smiled, “Of course. I didn’t plan to be gone for a long time anyway. Maybe we can study together or something when I get back. I haven’t been around lately, so I wanna catch up on my studying and...maybe spend some time with you too!”
Yunho looked up to see one of the most beautiful smiles he'd ever seen. So gentle and honest, how he wished he could just jump out of bed and kiss those cherry red lips! Of course, he did nothing but speechlessly nod his head again as Jaejoong giggled at his friend’s cute face. Jaejoong dressed nicely and left the room, waving goodbye to his friend before he departed. Yunho forced a smile and waved back out of courtesy. As soon as Jaejoong left, Yunho slammed his body right back into the bed, groaning out loud for acting like a fool in front of Jaejoong.
He knew that the massive feelings he had for his best friend were only days, hours, no minutes away from bursting. What would he do then? What would happen to them after that?
As if matters couldn't get any worse, Yunho noticed that there was a much bigger problem that needed tending to...immediately! He pulled his blanket away and saw his aroused length pointing straight up, standing tall and very hard, mocking him. He wasn't surprised by his erection, especially after last night's dream and this morning's smile.
Jaejoong always had this kind of effect on him and Yunho feared that one day he'd no longer have control of his body's reactions to Jaejoong's sexiness.
He pulled his laptop out from underneath the bed and turned it on. Once it was on, he went to the website that always helped him out in this situation:
PORN
He browsed through his usual adult website, finding a video that captured his interest and clicked on it. The video was of two guys kissing and sucking on each other’s lips. They were naked on a bed, sweating and breathing heavily, arousing themselves until both were just as hard as he was. Staring at the two men on the screen, Yunho couldn’t help but remember the dream he had had last night. He shamefully cursed himself once again for thinking about the dream.
He couldn’t believe his imagination had concocted yet another sex dream last night. But at the same time, he wasn't really surprised that it had happened. Almost every single time that Jaejoong came home with even the slightest indication that he had had sex, Yunho's subconscious would go into overdrive and he would, without fail, have a wet dream that night. His dreams were always erotic, revealing Yunho's deepest desires and cravings. He wanted Jaejoong so badly.
He listened to the moaning coming from the video on his computer, remembered the low sounds that came from the men in his dream. Without a second thought, he began to stroke himself slowly. Closing his eyes, he used the sounds from the video to enhance his memory of the dream from last night. The slurping sounds of one guy sucking off the other filled his ears as he squirmed in pleasure.
Yunho licked his lips, clearly seeing the bobbing head of the person in his dream behind his eyelids. Yunho moved the hand on his length in sync with the up and down movements of the figure in his imagination. He felt the pressure of his orgasm mounting up, reminding him of how vivid his dream had been and how right now, at this exact moment, he felt like the bottom from his dream.
He hadn’t really noticed it at the time, but as Yunho reminisced, losing himself in the memory of his dream, he realized that the hair of the dominant one in his dream was blond. Yunho then remembered his eyes. Those eyes…they were big and round…like Jaejoong's.
Jaejoong’s hair, Jaejoong’s eyes, then all of a sudden Jaejoong was the one sucking him off in his dream, fast and hard while Yunho was lying down begging and whining for more.
Yunho could see it so plainly now, his pleasure tripling.
Jaejoong was moving fast and steady on his cock, Jaejoong was smiling at him, wanting him to come deep inside his mouth and throat.
Jaejoong…Jaejoong…Jaejoong…
“JAEJOONG!!!”
He bellowed Jaejoong's name and simultaneously shot white liquid all over his chest, making a mess all over himself. He took short uneven breaths, trying to calm himself from the intense orgasm he had just given himself. He looked over to the computer screen and saw that one of the guys was about to penetrate the other, he quickly shut off his computer and put it away.
He couldn’t harbor thoughts like that...ever! He had already reached his limit of imagining, and even dreaming of Jaejoong sucking him off. He wouldn’t allow himself to go any further. He had to suppress any and all lustful thoughts of Jaejoong. Just thinking about what his roommate would think if he ever found out about all of this was enough to scare Yunho into quitting cold turkey!
After cleaning up and studying for a while, Yunho became hungry, so he got dressed and headed off campus to go get something to eat. Yunho took his time, strolling around, enjoying the afternoon. It was true that Yunho hadn't been going out very often. He was so wrapped up in his studies that he hid himself inside his dorm on most days.
He was amazed at the new stuff coming out like music, technology devices, clothes and fashion that had become trendy and popular recently. Maybe later, he and Jaejoong could do some shopping for some new stuff. He stopped by a vendor for some lunch while observing everything around him. As he finished the bit of food he had paid for, he was about to head back to the dorms, but saw someone familiar in the distance.
Jaejoong was walking, no, being dragged by a girl that Yunho recognized as a girl in their class, Lee Hyeorin. She was one of hottest girls on campus, many guys had their eyes on her. However, because of her wishy-washy personality, it was hard to even get near her. Most guys had not been able to even touch her.
The fact that Jaejoong was being dragged by her, meant that something was going on between them. Yunho kept watching them until they disappeared around the corner. He quickly followed them and managed to catch up but still kept his distance so they wouldn’t see him. They turned into a small alleyway and Yunho made himself scarce without them noticing.
What happened next caused Yunho horrible pain.
The moment they stopped, Hyeorin pushed Jaejoong into the brick wall and kissed him. Jaejoong didn’t refuse and instead wrapped his arms around her slim waist tightly, responding to the kiss. They exchanged kisses, their lips hot and wild with no intention of stopping. Yunho watched them painfully without even batting an eyelid as his heart ached. He knew better than to be hurt like this. He's known how Jaejoong was for a long time now, but he'd never actually witnessed anything, not even a kiss.
How he would daydream of what it would be like to kiss Jaejoong’s lips, claiming them as his and his only. Yunho wanted to kiss Jaejoong lovingly, with all of his emotions pouring out, showing the other how much he fallen for him. Yunho had warned himself before to never be surprised if he ever witnessed something like this but…his heart wasn’t listening.
He kept staring at them until he saw Hyeorin rushing to unbuckle Jaejoong’s pants. At that point, he couldn’t take it anymore and ran away in hurry. He kept running and running until he stopped at the park, with no more strength left to keep going. He sat down on a bench, breathing deeply as he tried to calm down. After relaxing for a bit, he felt so tired and weak he could hardly move.
Why was he reacting like this?
Being lovesick for his best friend was one thing, but becoming so weak and pathetic after seeing his crush kiss someone else was beyond what he could imagine. He should have known better, yet he chose to keep going down the same road...just for Jaejoong.
Jaejoong was the only person who had ever captured his heart, but Jaejoong wasn't even aware of this fact. He didn’t know the kind of pain and suffering that Yunho was going through, but why would he? In his eyes, Yunho was only a good friend, a best friend. No more, no less.
Life was being so unfair to Yunho right now.
Why? Why did he have to fall for his best friend? Can’t he just find someone he could trust to be with for the rest of his life? He may be young and naïve, almost to point of being an idiot, but he knows what he wants and needs.
He wants true love. He needs true passion and affection from the one he likes.
He was a fool. A love-blinded fool.
Yunho crouched down and held his head, hands clawing into his hair angrily. He just wanted to be loved and to love someone in return, was that too much to ask for?
He didn’t know anymore or even want to know. He just wanted to forget everything, from his pain to his love, to anything that would keep pulling and stretching him like a piece of dough. He wanted to numb himself from all of this.
Yunho stood up and started walking. Going as far as needed to until he reached his destination, and soon was right in front of the entrance. He went in and sat down in a corner, ordering all types of drinks and beers.
Sip by sip, gulp by gulp, he swallowed away his sorrows at a constant pace. He may be in hurry to be numb, but he was not so stupid as to drown himself in alcohol. The bitter liquid burned his throat but the after effects felt so good.
For just one day, he wanted to get drunk without thinking about anything.
PART B
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