Post #38

[immortal_lights]

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Bert/Bob, scat from Post #33
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Re: 5 times brendon cried 1/2

[anonymous]

"Shane, there's--there are so many things that could get her. Fuck, what if she runs into the woods? She's so small, Shane, she's never going to--"

"Brendon," Shane interrupts, voice calm. Too fucking calm. "We're looking for her, okay? She's going to be fine. It's a big farm but she's a smart dog."

Brendon wants to throw the phone across the room, he's so upset. It's not Shane's fault, he knows that, but. Dylan's just a puppy still. And of course Brendon has to be in fucking Europe where there's nothing he can do.

"Call me when you find her," Brendon mumbles. He hates it when his voice breaks.

"Brendon, don't worry. She's fine. I'll call you."

"I know," Brendon says, trying to calm down. He hangs up and stands in the bunk aisle with his phone in his hands. He doesn't want to worry, there's nothing he can do. He's vaguely aware of a wetness on his cheeks and rubs his sleeve over his eyes, frustrated at himself for crying.

"Brendon?"

Brendon bites his lip, keeps his head down. "Dylan's missing. On Shane's parents' farm. She... I guess she was running around and they can't find her, and they have all this fucking corn and there's woods nearby and--"

Ryan steps forward, touching Brendon's shoulder gently. "Hey. It's okay to be worried. Did you already talk to Shane?"

Brendon nods, wiping his face again and letting Ryan pull him into his arms. He leans his head against Ryan's shoulder and sighs. "They'll find her. She means a lot to Shane too, you know."

Brendon sniffles and closes his eyes. He does know. He'll call Shane back later. And maybe buy some weird dog toys while they're overseas. He has to make sure Dylan still loves him most when he gets back, no matter how many treats Shane sneaks her.

---

Brendon holds her like she's going to break if he breathes too hard. Ryan would tease him but he understands that, how precious she feels in your arms. And he maybe watches Brendon a little more closely when she's in his arms.

"She's so perfect," Brendon whispers, completely in awe. "A tiny, tiny person. And you two, you--you made this."

Ryan glances over at Keltie and smiles. When he turns back to Brendon he notices that his eyes are wet, wide and sparkling with unshed tears. "Brendon?"

Brendon shakes his head, places his index finger in the baby's palm. She's mostly asleep but her little fingers still curl around his finger reflexively. Ryan reaches out without thinking and brushes away the few tears that have rolled down Brendon's cheeks.

"You can have this too," Ryan says quietly, stroking over the back of the baby's hand that's curled around Brendon's finger.

Brendon laughs a little. "Maybe someday."

"You can, Brendon, if you want us to--"

"Somehow," Brendon interrupts, not looking away from the sleeping baby in his arms. "Somehow she's more important than anything we've ever done, you know? Than anything we could ever do. It's like, everything is just--" Brendon stops suddenly, closing his eyes and leaning down so he can kiss her forehead. Ryan's heart twists a little and Brendon carefully gives the baby back to Keltie. He gets up and puts on his coat.

"Where are you going?"

Brendon turns back and smiles, and Ryan's glad to see it isn't forced, even if Brendon's eyes are still a little wet. "To get this girl some tiny musical instruments. I need to start spoiling her early, right? And--and to talk to Shane."

Ryan smiles back, exchanges a quick look with Keltie. "Good luck."

"Thanks. Take care. When she wakes up, can you--tell her I said hi, okay?"

Ryan nods. "Love you," he says quietly, but loud enough for Brendon to hear.

Brendon's face freezes for a moment and Ryan can tell he's trying to hold back tears. After all these years, and Brendon still doesn't want to cry in front of him. "Love you too."

After Brendon leaves, Ryan reaches back and takes Keltie's hand. Brendon will figure things out. He always does.

Re: 5 times brendon cried 1/2

[anonymous]

2/2**** oops

Re: 5 times brendon cried 1/2

[anonymous]

Oh, my heart, this is absolutely lovely. Thank you so much. ♥

Re: 5 times brendon cried 1/2

[anonymous]

Aww, my poor heart. This was sweet and achy and beautiful. I loved it :D