Killing in the name of...

[anomalousrhythm]

I rage I hate I know I believe I think I lust I love I hate I kill I live I can I cant I do I dont I will I wont I could I should I would I loathe I despise I am I was I bleed I speak I laugh I cry I try I miss I fail I win lose I...

I just don't know anymore

why is this so hard?