shit
I feel like such shit. I am so weak, I have lost like 25 lbs... im pissed b/c it really doesn't look like it. Yah... can't sleep even though i have taken 4 vicadin for my back and like 4 or 5 sleeping pills. I feel like shit for the stuff i have done the past couple days... im so angry at everything... i don't know what the fuck to do. I am already sick of school. I will feel better for like a second then something will remind me of the current events and the only thing that makes me feel better is going to the gym for like 2 hours and strait running or doing an elliptical, I eat like 1/3 what i should in a day usually only having one "meal" if you can call eating 1 slice of bread with tuna on it a meal. I hope that if i read this later it makes sense so i know im not dellusional im really dizzy/sick feeling right now. why, why, why, why.... what in the fuck did i ever fucking do.