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apparently it is time to write in lj because i am in the midst of a paper.
3 am and two pages left to go, i am SO READY to be done with all of this. this week has been nuts anyway, i decided that i needed to get the english department to put on an undergraduate literature conference this semester, so i have been writing proposals and emails and calls for papers nonstop, meeting with professors and pitching things and negotiating and researching catering and i am ready to fucking give up on it all. i'm a little bit excited to think we might actually pull it off, though. it would be nice to know that i can create and plan an event. but still i wonder how i became this person with ideas and the balls to go and talk to the head of my department and the audacity to try to put a stamp on my campus before i graduate. it's so not in my control, i never planned on becoming this sort of deal.
this year is nuts. i like it so.
i want to be done with this paper so i can sleep, and i am seriously considering just going to bed and hoping that i wake up in time to finish in the morning, because i'm pretty sure i'm skipping my first class anyway.
someday matt and i are going to buy all 90 dvds of the joy of painting (30 series of 13 shows each!?! did you have any idea he made so many?). our lives will henceforth bear a patina of happy little things and the comforting, melodic speech of bob ross. i feel relaxed just thinking about it.
or maybe that's just me falling asleep at my computer.
3 am and two pages left to go, i am SO READY to be done with all of this. this week has been nuts anyway, i decided that i needed to get the english department to put on an undergraduate literature conference this semester, so i have been writing proposals and emails and calls for papers nonstop, meeting with professors and pitching things and negotiating and researching catering and i am ready to fucking give up on it all. i'm a little bit excited to think we might actually pull it off, though. it would be nice to know that i can create and plan an event. but still i wonder how i became this person with ideas and the balls to go and talk to the head of my department and the audacity to try to put a stamp on my campus before i graduate. it's so not in my control, i never planned on becoming this sort of deal.
this year is nuts. i like it so.
i want to be done with this paper so i can sleep, and i am seriously considering just going to bed and hoping that i wake up in time to finish in the morning, because i'm pretty sure i'm skipping my first class anyway.
someday matt and i are going to buy all 90 dvds of the joy of painting (30 series of 13 shows each!?! did you have any idea he made so many?). our lives will henceforth bear a patina of happy little things and the comforting, melodic speech of bob ross. i feel relaxed just thinking about it.
or maybe that's just me falling asleep at my computer.