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Feb 02, 2009 13:33

i wrote and recorded this song in what was probably 2007. it's pretty straight-forward country sounding, and even has a somewhat 'pop' formulaic vibe to it. i wrote and it recorded it very quickly, in one session, on a whim. i became immediately embarrassed by it, didn't bother really mixing or editing it at all, and i'm not sure anyone's ever heard it. the other day i heard it randomly and tried to figure out why it bothered me. technically i like the song, what it's about, and i think about it every day(the concept, not the song.) so in theory, the song is exactly what my songs should be, and i should like it... i think that's what makes me hate its 'formulaic' vibe. i'm afraid it takes something earnest and makes it cheap. it feels dumbed down.

but what is dumbed down? dumbed down from what? who am i to say? part of the super-intelligent? please. this is a symptom of my exaggerated opinion of myself. i mean hell, the song is basically about doing drugs and neglecting 'responsibilities.' but even still, people can relate to that... it just makes me feel weird. but at the end of the day, i think the song is good on some level, so what's the problem?

at any rate, if i don't get over myself and start letting people hear -everything- i do, regardless of my personal feelings, i need to stop pretending that music will ever be a career again. it's work, it's not supposed to be personal...

that's why art should never be work.

everything that's beautiful dies.

so fuck it.
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spending time (download)

hand me that pipe right there, and i will load the bowl
i want you to tell me everything you know
all the things you've learned about, and everywhere you've been
it might look like we ain't doing much, but this is how i'll spend

my time, it's precious, and there ain't no doubt
it's slipping faster away than i care to think about
and i know that you've got so much to do, me too
but i'm gonna sit right here, talking, hopefully with you
yeah i hope you will stay too

well i've never seen a woman look so good as you did on that hill
and if i were a betting man, i'd say i never will
i think i could go anywhere and be content with you
and i can't think of a single thing that i would rather do

with my time, it's precious, and there ain't no doubt
it's slipping faster away than i care to talk about
and i know that you've got so much to do, me too
but i'm gonna sit right here, talking, hopefully with you
yeah i hope you will stay too

did you see that star fall the other night?
do you think what the president said today was right?
do you think that it's ever okay to fight?
have you ever been to austin? i'll go with you if you like..

this time, it's precious, the time i have with you
it's slipping faster away and there's nothing we can do
and i thank you for all the company you've given me
and i hope that you will be happy, satisfied, and free
wherever you will be
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it is what it is.
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