Schoolies 2005 - Finally
Roach found this for me today…..
I forgot all about it, It’s interesting to see what happened after it all
I don’t believe that anyone feels the way I do about you now
Wednesday.
It’s amazing sharing a house with people to see how they and you act. Some people surprise you with how much they can help and others with how much they don’t help. The way that you have double standards for people is what has surprised me most about myself. A friend who often disappoints me with what they do in my house with other people has had little effect on me but one who I thought would so the less harm has done the most. It’s sad that I could be so disappointed with one of my good friends. This wolf in sheep’s clothing has upset me because I thought that I could pick the people who would do this to me.
I fell like I’m burdening a good friend with these feelings as they are the only one sober enough to care.
Speaking of the subject I nearly went home today, last night I stayed in my room for 2 hours just listening to everyone, no one knew that I was gone. After a while of crying, a run and a brawl with a random guy I returned home to have a few realized I was gone. A while longer and more crying I cut my arm for the first time, but as someone has said it looks like a scrap, so I’ll say I fell over.
It’s like a bomb went off and only the sleeping survived. I find it sad how the bad things stay in your head instead of the good things but I guess that’s the way things go. The boy has now decided to stay the whole time, I want him gone but then I want a couple people gone.
Friday
I feel good but the two people are still hear and still don’t care how bad I feel. Two people left today, I’m glad that they came down as I feel like I have connected with one of them really well. Mark and a couple others from last Friday are coming back down today. Me and my Frenchland partner are both looking forwards to it. Oh last night was interesting- instead of bitching about the little groups that had formed, we named and defined them. We told everyone what we thought and it actually went well. Since then some fractions have merged and some disappeared due to people leaving and people being bitchy, but Frenchland survives.