Jan 08, 2006 01:17
I'm messed up. I'm in a foul mood. And have been all week.
There are several reasons:
1. No sun in Grand Rapids since I've been here. I NEED TO SEE THE SUN!
2. PMS. Cursed pills make my hormones crazy.
3. Josh. I've talked to him every day since I've been back to Calvin. That is amazing. Today I talked to him for 40 minutes. It was great. But I'm doubting myself...does he want me or just want to stay on friendly terms? Just let me know that you like me talking to you, Josh! Give me more conformation. Maybe I should give you more too.
4. Just people. People not willing to broaden their horizons, ever. Or if they say they want to, they then change their minds. *sigh* Just trust me for once, please, I won't lead you astray in the movie choice!
5. Housing for next year. Where am I going to live? With who?
6. I have had no extended time to myself since being here. It's wearing on me. I can't even think things through because I'm never alone! Never. I don't know what I want or where I'm going and I have no time to ponder it.
That's it. I'm still bitter and confused and bewildered.