Vividcon 2016 Con Report (Part 2)
Here's my Vividcon 2016 Con Report (Part 1) here.
I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me! This goes for anything as I'd always like to improve :)
I was going to just go up to my room and decompress but was happy to join
hollywoodgrrl,
ohvienna,
kiki_miserychic,
thisiskis,
khaleesian and
cherry at the Thai place where I got some Pad Thai to go as I was still feeling full from snacks earlier. We had a fun conversation about fandom, vids and a little RL stuff and then I left to go back to my room to prepare for Club Vivid and talked a little with
par_avion there.
bessyboo had kindly invited me to join her Stars Wars cosplaying group so I went as Leia and
bessyboo helped me do the hair up in her room. I was determined to get really drunk at CVV this year in part to relax my nerves after the panel anxiety and to just have an awesome time since I worked so hard on my CVV premiere (I joked it was like my premiere since it was happening on the usual Premieres night). I got a drink downstairs and ate a little food while talking to
cee_m,
kass,
celli and others I'm forgetting (sorry!). I know I talked with
jarrow about Unreal and that he was excited about my CVV vid since he loved the song which I was happy to hear.
I know
sdwolfpup came in with her T-Rex costume and brought the house down cause it was SO AWESOME! The Joxer dance started soon after that and as always, it's SO fun to dance to and feel a part of this amazing community of people. I went to dance with
bessyboo for her Star Wars vid that was her first CVV vid and as I suspected, it was SO MUCH fun to dance to with everyone and seemed to go over well. My vid was directly after though so I was a bit nervous but determined to dance and have fun to it.
jarrow was right next to me and it was SO FUN to sing the lyrics together (even if I skipped the first verse and forgot to say, sorry!) and have someone beside me who loved femslash just as much (if not, more?) than I do. It was great to get to dance down low to the song as I had been imagining for months before while running to this song. Then once the vid finished,
jarrow gave me a big hug followed by a bunch of people that I couldn't tell who because I couldn't see lol but let me know if it was you because it was one of my favorite Club Vivid memories ever :) Thank you to everyone who said nice things about my vid throughout the night!
Next I went over to dance with
winterevanesce,
bradcpu and
milly as their vids premiered and were AMAZING! It was also great to see
grammarwoman's women focused Star Wars vid and to top it off, she was wearing an awesome Ghostbusters costume :) I made sure to go over and dance with my fellow Glee lover,
klb when my Glee, I Love It vid played (I don't know if this vid was put in regards to my panel but it was a nice touch if so!) and that was fun to see on the big screen again. Then it was great to dance to Paul McCartney again as it's one of my favorite CVV
jarrow vids (there are many) and after that it was fun to dance with
elipie to her fun Don't Trust the B vid (so weird to think that it's Jessica Jones now!). I did have a small badge malfunction and had to take a short break to find
renenet who was super nice and helped get me a new one (don't put your phone in your badge while dancing is the lesson). Then I went over to dance with
hollywoodgrrl,
kiki_miserychic and
ohvienna whose vid, Raspberry Swirl was amazing and I finally got to see understanding the context since I caught up with Outlander S1 before the con. It was also super fun to dance to the Person of Interest S&M vid which I was SO happy
absolutedestiny put in (I requested it cause YAY POI ladies :D) to dance to especially to have Carter join the party. It was also super fun to dance to
hollywoodgrrl's Pep Rally vid which is such an awesome Game of Thrones vid that makes me sooo happy and of course is amazingly well edited. Speaking of,
kiki_miserychic's Laughing in the Sugarbowl vid blew my mind with the super fast, perfect editing and made Rogue Nation look like something I really had to watch.
I was super happy to get to rock out to
violace's Mad Max vid and happy that
fan_eunice appreciated my inability to contain my jumping feels. Definitely one of the highlights of CVV for me and then I was really glad to get to dance to the amazing Fan.tasia Disney movie vid that I've been watching a lot for my Disney feels. There was also a limbo bar at one point and that was fun to do lol. I don't remember when I talked to specific people but I know I talked with
seekingferret and
mediaopilus at some point as well as many others. I was SO glad to see
seekingferret's West Wing Toby vid which gave me ALL THE TOBY FEELS (I have a lot) and then I really loved that
absolutedestiny put in a 90's pop section with my fave artists as a kid: Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, N'Sync and it was super cool to see all the great vids play onscreen. It was really fun to dance to
bradcpu and
milly's Legends of Tomorrow vid and then it was SO great to come full circle and dance to
sdwolfpup's Obama vid after I had such amazing memories of dancing to it in 2009 after he had first become president (and this time the vidder got to be here!). It was also super fun to dance to
elipie's I Gotta Feeling Hamilton vids and celebrate allll the Hamilton feels with my fellow Hamilton fans.
The finale of dance vids is always amazing and I particularly loved dancing and singing the words to Uptown Funk (I missed my Jefferson vid but SOMEDAY as I told
heresluck), Shut Up and Dance and Starships which is always the MOST amazing experience to share that love of spaceships and fandom and vids with a whole floor of fans dancing and singing along. I'm forgetting lots of individual fun memories and when they occured but there was some fun twirl dancing with
thisiskis and there's an amazing feeling to get to just turn to people and sing the same lyrics along with them and know they love the song/vid/fandom/Club Vivid just as much as you do. It is truly a magical experience and I'm always sad when Can't Stop the Rock comes on. This was definitely in my top Club Vivids ever (it's a high bar) and it felt like it was a cleansing experience from the earlier anxiety and emotions of the day and it washed all of that away and made me feel a sense of deep belonging, joy, exhilaration and connection.
Afterwards, I started talking to
frostfire,
jarrow and
killabeez and
klb about TGIF/F and how amazing that was and will be next year when they add an actual vid dance party like Club Vivid.
jarrow invited
klb and me back up to his room to watch some of his Faberrycon videos which were so beautiful to see. We talked a lot about how to create community and improve the con experience at TGIF/F and made me even more excited to attend next year. It was an amazing conversation that I was so happy to share with them and then it was great to talk a little more with
ride_4ever when she came into the room. I left to go back to my room late and I hoped I had drunk enough water to remain hangover free but it's always a risky proposition to drink a lot for me and I woke up that morning feeling terrible and of course had forgotten my Advil as I do almost every year :(
Anyways, I slept on and off but I had to make it to the Hamilton panel at 10am although I was too exhausted and sick to take notes (sorry!) which definitely cheered me up with the amazing
sdwolfpup and
heresluck leading the way with some great questions. They even showed two of the vids made for me (Jefferson Funk and Bang Bang) which made me super happy to see and I loved discussing why we love to vid Hamilton as well as some of the challenges of vidding it. Next up was the Let It Go panel about how to let go of vid WIPs where
trelkez had great slides on the different stages and kinds of vid WIPs and we discussed various reasons and ways to let them go. It was especially fun to get to see the unfinished Catbaby sequel which was super funny even unfunished. For lunch, I went to eat in the House O'Meat with
jetpack_monkey,
echan,
elipie,
bradcpu,
milly and
cherry and we had fun talking about vids, the con so far, fandom and other things.
I headed up for In Depth Vid Review led by
kiki_miserychic and
tencel where we discussed the Agent Carter vid by
sweetestdrain and
hollywoodgrrl's Star Wars vid. I was happy to discuss both vids as I don't watch Agent Carter so the first vid was a little harder to understand and
hollywoodgrrl's vid was so tightly packed with meaning that was fun to hear what people had to say about it. Next up was Challenge which I was excited to see with the Descent vid (although I was bummed I hadn't been able to finish a vid for it). There were some great vids in the show with my personal favorites being Highway to Hell by
astolat, Going Down by
kiki_miserychic and Good For You by
trelkez. In between Challenge Review/reveals, I talked a little with
bradcpu about the show and our guesses and then after the show, I talked a little more with
ohvienna (who made alll the vids apparently),
kiki_miserychic and
hollywoodgrrl as well as a few others I'm forgetting. I went to get my VVC DVD where I ran into
hederahelix and
morgandawn and we had a good chat about Wyonna Earp and The Magicians.
Then I headed over to the con suite where I finally got to talk to
iuliamentis a little and then had a good conversation with
tencel about vids and lesbian movies among other things. Next I went up to my room and had an amazing conversation with
klb about our lives and Vividcon and it was really great to connect with her on a deeper level. One of the best decisions I made this con was to try to have more one on one conversations with people and it really improved my con experience and made me feel closer to people there. Then I headed down to the con suite where a group was going to House O'Meat so while I already had eaten some Pad Thai leftovers, I decided to go with them and get a chance to talk more with people. While we waited for a table, I talked a little with
jarrow,
sweetestdrain,
joyo and
elipie and then waited some more in the lobby with
shati,
bironic and
jetpack_monkey where we had a good conversation about future vids and Festivids.
I was really happy to have a chance to talk more with
lola as we were seated next to each other at dinner and we had a lot of fun talking about acafandom stuff, vid/vidshow ideas and various other things. It was also fun to talk more with
thirdblindmouse,
jackiekjono and others at the table and to have the fun of seeing where group fannish conversation takes us. I think I headed back to my room briefly and then went to hang out with
bradcpu,
milly,
kiki_miserychic,
elipie,
hollywoodgrrl and
ohvienna where we talked about our con experiences, favorite vids, fandom loves (and hates lol), hung out with the baby and just had fun talking. We stayed up late again (even
hollywoodgrrl and
ohvienna who were dying lol) and then I went to get some sleep which although I woke up early again, at least I was able to enjoy some free hotel breakfast. I ate with
milly,
wickedwords and
jackiekjono and we talked a little about stuff but we were definitely all feeling kind of tired and sad that it was Monday and everything was ending.
I went upstairs to finish packing and then came back downstairs to wait in the lobby and say goodbye to everyone. I talked a little with
serrico and
tencel and got to talk a little with
revolutionaryjo and
lunate8 before they left although it was especially sad to say goodbye to
bessyboo after the awesome week we spent together in Minneapolis. Next I hung out a little with
absolutedestiny,
joyo,
fan_eunice,
chipunk71 and a few others before they left for breakfast and then I went to my room to bring my stuff back down and then hung out in the lobby to say goodbye to people as they left. I know at some point I talked some more with
ohvienna and
hollywoodgrrl and got to talk a little more with
killabeez and
wickedwords before they left. At some point, I helped
renenet pack up the con suite stuff back into the car along with
elipie,
heresluck,
cherry,
grammarwoman and couple others. I was able to say goodbye to
bradcpu and
milly before they left and then got to talk to
ohvienna a little about Outlander S1 before she and
hollywoodgrrl left. It was also nice to get to say goodbye to
heresluck with a Hamilton reference ;)
I mostly hung out
elipie,
jarrow,
cherry and
jetpack_monkey in the lobby while we waited for our later flights. It was fun to talk a little more about TGIF/F and Faberrycon with
jarrow and talk a little more about the con and fandom before we left. Finally it was time for me to go and I got hugs from everyone before I left which is always kind of sad even if I still had fannish hangouts to look forward to. At the airport, I had fun listening to vidsongs and got super excited about making allll of them as well as watched some of the Club Vivid vids I hadn't seen all of. I took a flight back to NYC where I mostly slept and watched some vids. Then I went to stay with
klb where we had another great conversation about Vividcon, our lives and fannish projects. I woke up early once again but at least got to see
klb's super cute baby and talked briefly with her before heading out to the gym at Chelsea Piers where I got to talk a little with
counteragent before going to a fun trampoline/fitness class. Then we ate brunch together where we had fun talking about Vividcon, vids, various fandoms (including Hamilton) and our lives in general. There was a super cool long monkey bars (for adults!) that I had fun playing on, ninja warrior style and the whole gym was gorgeous with a great view.
Finally she had to get some work done so I said goodbye and headed back to hang out more with
klb where we watched the Keys to the Kingdom vidshow and talked some about the vids. After that we talked a little more about our lives until it was time for me to leave to catch my bus back to my Dad's place. I mostly slept on the bus as well as watching the whole Premieres show again which was super helpful to watch with headphones and alone so I could fully concentrate on the vids and I picked up a lot more on that run through. Once I got home, my Vividcon was over and it was sad but at least I finally got to sleep as long as I wanted.
Thank you again to all the amazing people that made my Vividcon so wonderful and amazing and for all the people who helped put the con together, worked on programming and submitted vids. It was funny that there was a panel at the con about letting go because it felt like a lot of the con was an exercise in letting go for me: letting go of my expectations, my nerves, FOMO, my hopes that everything would go perfectly and instead just savoring all the good moments, allowing myself to be vulnerable and making deeper connections from it, doing the best I could even when things were hard, loving the vids and community all around me. In the end, life is too fucking short to focus on the bad stuff so I tried my best to be happy at all the good things this con gave me this year and all the ways it has enhanced my life. I love Vividcon so much and I'm so glad I've gotten to enjoy it with so many different beautiful, amazing people and that is so incredibly meaningful.
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I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me! This goes for anything as I'd always like to improve :)
I was going to just go up to my room and decompress but was happy to join
hollywoodgrrl,
ohvienna,
kiki_miserychic,
thisiskis,
khaleesian and
cherry at the Thai place where I got some Pad Thai to go as I was still feeling full from snacks earlier. We had a fun conversation about fandom, vids and a little RL stuff and then I left to go back to my room to prepare for Club Vivid and talked a little with
par_avion there.
bessyboo had kindly invited me to join her Stars Wars cosplaying group so I went as Leia and
bessyboo helped me do the hair up in her room. I was determined to get really drunk at CVV this year in part to relax my nerves after the panel anxiety and to just have an awesome time since I worked so hard on my CVV premiere (I joked it was like my premiere since it was happening on the usual Premieres night). I got a drink downstairs and ate a little food while talking to
cee_m,
kass,
celli and others I'm forgetting (sorry!). I know I talked with
jarrow about Unreal and that he was excited about my CVV vid since he loved the song which I was happy to hear.
I know
sdwolfpup came in with her T-Rex costume and brought the house down cause it was SO AWESOME! The Joxer dance started soon after that and as always, it's SO fun to dance to and feel a part of this amazing community of people. I went to dance with
bessyboo for her Star Wars vid that was her first CVV vid and as I suspected, it was SO MUCH fun to dance to with everyone and seemed to go over well. My vid was directly after though so I was a bit nervous but determined to dance and have fun to it.
jarrow was right next to me and it was SO FUN to sing the lyrics together (even if I skipped the first verse and forgot to say, sorry!) and have someone beside me who loved femslash just as much (if not, more?) than I do. It was great to get to dance down low to the song as I had been imagining for months before while running to this song. Then once the vid finished,
jarrow gave me a big hug followed by a bunch of people that I couldn't tell who because I couldn't see lol but let me know if it was you because it was one of my favorite Club Vivid memories ever :) Thank you to everyone who said nice things about my vid throughout the night!
Next I went over to dance with
winterevanesce,
bradcpu and
milly as their vids premiered and were AMAZING! It was also great to see
grammarwoman's women focused Star Wars vid and to top it off, she was wearing an awesome Ghostbusters costume :) I made sure to go over and dance with my fellow Glee lover,
klb when my Glee, I Love It vid played (I don't know if this vid was put in regards to my panel but it was a nice touch if so!) and that was fun to see on the big screen again. Then it was great to dance to Paul McCartney again as it's one of my favorite CVV
jarrow vids (there are many) and after that it was fun to dance with
elipie to her fun Don't Trust the B vid (so weird to think that it's Jessica Jones now!). I did have a small badge malfunction and had to take a short break to find
renenet who was super nice and helped get me a new one (don't put your phone in your badge while dancing is the lesson). Then I went over to dance with
hollywoodgrrl,
kiki_miserychic and
ohvienna whose vid, Raspberry Swirl was amazing and I finally got to see understanding the context since I caught up with Outlander S1 before the con. It was also super fun to dance to the Person of Interest S&M vid which I was SO happy
absolutedestiny put in (I requested it cause YAY POI ladies :D) to dance to especially to have Carter join the party. It was also super fun to dance to
hollywoodgrrl's Pep Rally vid which is such an awesome Game of Thrones vid that makes me sooo happy and of course is amazingly well edited. Speaking of,
kiki_miserychic's Laughing in the Sugarbowl vid blew my mind with the super fast, perfect editing and made Rogue Nation look like something I really had to watch.
I was super happy to get to rock out to
violace's Mad Max vid and happy that
fan_eunice appreciated my inability to contain my jumping feels. Definitely one of the highlights of CVV for me and then I was really glad to get to dance to the amazing Fan.tasia Disney movie vid that I've been watching a lot for my Disney feels. There was also a limbo bar at one point and that was fun to do lol. I don't remember when I talked to specific people but I know I talked with
seekingferret and
mediaopilus at some point as well as many others. I was SO glad to see
seekingferret's West Wing Toby vid which gave me ALL THE TOBY FEELS (I have a lot) and then I really loved that
absolutedestiny put in a 90's pop section with my fave artists as a kid: Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, N'Sync and it was super cool to see all the great vids play onscreen. It was really fun to dance to
bradcpu and
milly's Legends of Tomorrow vid and then it was SO great to come full circle and dance to
sdwolfpup's Obama vid after I had such amazing memories of dancing to it in 2009 after he had first become president (and this time the vidder got to be here!). It was also super fun to dance to
elipie's I Gotta Feeling Hamilton vids and celebrate allll the Hamilton feels with my fellow Hamilton fans.
The finale of dance vids is always amazing and I particularly loved dancing and singing the words to Uptown Funk (I missed my Jefferson vid but SOMEDAY as I told
heresluck), Shut Up and Dance and Starships which is always the MOST amazing experience to share that love of spaceships and fandom and vids with a whole floor of fans dancing and singing along. I'm forgetting lots of individual fun memories and when they occured but there was some fun twirl dancing with
thisiskis and there's an amazing feeling to get to just turn to people and sing the same lyrics along with them and know they love the song/vid/fandom/Club Vivid just as much as you do. It is truly a magical experience and I'm always sad when Can't Stop the Rock comes on. This was definitely in my top Club Vivids ever (it's a high bar) and it felt like it was a cleansing experience from the earlier anxiety and emotions of the day and it washed all of that away and made me feel a sense of deep belonging, joy, exhilaration and connection.
Afterwards, I started talking to
frostfire,
jarrow and
killabeez and
klb about TGIF/F and how amazing that was and will be next year when they add an actual vid dance party like Club Vivid.
jarrow invited
klb and me back up to his room to watch some of his Faberrycon videos which were so beautiful to see. We talked a lot about how to create community and improve the con experience at TGIF/F and made me even more excited to attend next year. It was an amazing conversation that I was so happy to share with them and then it was great to talk a little more with
ride_4ever when she came into the room. I left to go back to my room late and I hoped I had drunk enough water to remain hangover free but it's always a risky proposition to drink a lot for me and I woke up that morning feeling terrible and of course had forgotten my Advil as I do almost every year :(
Anyways, I slept on and off but I had to make it to the Hamilton panel at 10am although I was too exhausted and sick to take notes (sorry!) which definitely cheered me up with the amazing
sdwolfpup and
heresluck leading the way with some great questions. They even showed two of the vids made for me (Jefferson Funk and Bang Bang) which made me super happy to see and I loved discussing why we love to vid Hamilton as well as some of the challenges of vidding it. Next up was the Let It Go panel about how to let go of vid WIPs where
trelkez had great slides on the different stages and kinds of vid WIPs and we discussed various reasons and ways to let them go. It was especially fun to get to see the unfinished Catbaby sequel which was super funny even unfunished. For lunch, I went to eat in the House O'Meat with
jetpack_monkey,
echan,
elipie,
bradcpu,
milly and
cherry and we had fun talking about vids, the con so far, fandom and other things.
I headed up for In Depth Vid Review led by
kiki_miserychic and
tencel where we discussed the Agent Carter vid by
sweetestdrain and
hollywoodgrrl's Star Wars vid. I was happy to discuss both vids as I don't watch Agent Carter so the first vid was a little harder to understand and
hollywoodgrrl's vid was so tightly packed with meaning that was fun to hear what people had to say about it. Next up was Challenge which I was excited to see with the Descent vid (although I was bummed I hadn't been able to finish a vid for it). There were some great vids in the show with my personal favorites being Highway to Hell by
astolat, Going Down by
kiki_miserychic and Good For You by
trelkez. In between Challenge Review/reveals, I talked a little with
bradcpu about the show and our guesses and then after the show, I talked a little more with
ohvienna (who made alll the vids apparently),
kiki_miserychic and
hollywoodgrrl as well as a few others I'm forgetting. I went to get my VVC DVD where I ran into
hederahelix and
morgandawn and we had a good chat about Wyonna Earp and The Magicians.
Then I headed over to the con suite where I finally got to talk to
iuliamentis a little and then had a good conversation with
tencel about vids and lesbian movies among other things. Next I went up to my room and had an amazing conversation with
klb about our lives and Vividcon and it was really great to connect with her on a deeper level. One of the best decisions I made this con was to try to have more one on one conversations with people and it really improved my con experience and made me feel closer to people there. Then I headed down to the con suite where a group was going to House O'Meat so while I already had eaten some Pad Thai leftovers, I decided to go with them and get a chance to talk more with people. While we waited for a table, I talked a little with
jarrow,
sweetestdrain,
joyo and
elipie and then waited some more in the lobby with
shati,
bironic and
jetpack_monkey where we had a good conversation about future vids and Festivids.
I was really happy to have a chance to talk more with
lola as we were seated next to each other at dinner and we had a lot of fun talking about acafandom stuff, vid/vidshow ideas and various other things. It was also fun to talk more with
thirdblindmouse,
jackiekjono and others at the table and to have the fun of seeing where group fannish conversation takes us. I think I headed back to my room briefly and then went to hang out with
bradcpu,
milly,
kiki_miserychic,
elipie,
hollywoodgrrl and
ohvienna where we talked about our con experiences, favorite vids, fandom loves (and hates lol), hung out with the baby and just had fun talking. We stayed up late again (even
hollywoodgrrl and
ohvienna who were dying lol) and then I went to get some sleep which although I woke up early again, at least I was able to enjoy some free hotel breakfast. I ate with
milly,
wickedwords and
jackiekjono and we talked a little about stuff but we were definitely all feeling kind of tired and sad that it was Monday and everything was ending.
I went upstairs to finish packing and then came back downstairs to wait in the lobby and say goodbye to everyone. I talked a little with
serrico and
tencel and got to talk a little with
revolutionaryjo and
lunate8 before they left although it was especially sad to say goodbye to
bessyboo after the awesome week we spent together in Minneapolis. Next I hung out a little with
absolutedestiny,
joyo,
fan_eunice,
chipunk71 and a few others before they left for breakfast and then I went to my room to bring my stuff back down and then hung out in the lobby to say goodbye to people as they left. I know at some point I talked some more with
ohvienna and
hollywoodgrrl and got to talk a little more with
killabeez and
wickedwords before they left. At some point, I helped
renenet pack up the con suite stuff back into the car along with
elipie,
heresluck,
cherry,
grammarwoman and couple others. I was able to say goodbye to
bradcpu and
milly before they left and then got to talk to
ohvienna a little about Outlander S1 before she and
hollywoodgrrl left. It was also nice to get to say goodbye to
heresluck with a Hamilton reference ;)
I mostly hung out
elipie,
jarrow,
cherry and
jetpack_monkey in the lobby while we waited for our later flights. It was fun to talk a little more about TGIF/F and Faberrycon with
jarrow and talk a little more about the con and fandom before we left. Finally it was time for me to go and I got hugs from everyone before I left which is always kind of sad even if I still had fannish hangouts to look forward to. At the airport, I had fun listening to vidsongs and got super excited about making allll of them as well as watched some of the Club Vivid vids I hadn't seen all of. I took a flight back to NYC where I mostly slept and watched some vids. Then I went to stay with
klb where we had another great conversation about Vividcon, our lives and fannish projects. I woke up early once again but at least got to see
klb's super cute baby and talked briefly with her before heading out to the gym at Chelsea Piers where I got to talk a little with
counteragent before going to a fun trampoline/fitness class. Then we ate brunch together where we had fun talking about Vividcon, vids, various fandoms (including Hamilton) and our lives in general. There was a super cool long monkey bars (for adults!) that I had fun playing on, ninja warrior style and the whole gym was gorgeous with a great view.
Finally she had to get some work done so I said goodbye and headed back to hang out more with
klb where we watched the Keys to the Kingdom vidshow and talked some about the vids. After that we talked a little more about our lives until it was time for me to leave to catch my bus back to my Dad's place. I mostly slept on the bus as well as watching the whole Premieres show again which was super helpful to watch with headphones and alone so I could fully concentrate on the vids and I picked up a lot more on that run through. Once I got home, my Vividcon was over and it was sad but at least I finally got to sleep as long as I wanted.
Thank you again to all the amazing people that made my Vividcon so wonderful and amazing and for all the people who helped put the con together, worked on programming and submitted vids. It was funny that there was a panel at the con about letting go because it felt like a lot of the con was an exercise in letting go for me: letting go of my expectations, my nerves, FOMO, my hopes that everything would go perfectly and instead just savoring all the good moments, allowing myself to be vulnerable and making deeper connections from it, doing the best I could even when things were hard, loving the vids and community all around me. In the end, life is too fucking short to focus on the bad stuff so I tried my best to be happy at all the good things this con gave me this year and all the ways it has enhanced my life. I love Vividcon so much and I'm so glad I've gotten to enjoy it with so many different beautiful, amazing people and that is so incredibly meaningful.
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