Feb 01, 2010 14:13
Soooooo. Basically, for the past two weeks I have experienced THE WORST FUCKING MOST UNREAL FEAR AND ANXIETY. I literally am like, holding my arms in and shaking I am the most afraid at night... when I am alone, and had to have Phil's brother AND father come and check out the weird scratching at the back door TWICE in the SAME NIGHT.
This morning I officially had enough of this gut-wrenching personal hell and cereal-called Dr. Chrisphonté until his receptionist picked up.
He explained to me in his deep french-accented voice that I need a serious dose-uppage.. and he was fearful of just loading me up with pills... obviously,however, the "slow approach" is not working.
Geodon: and anti-psychotic used to treat acute mixed episode bipolar disorders and schizophrenia.. it is a relative of Abilify, and now instead of 40mg once a day I have to take 60mg twice a day.
Lyrica: a medication that he is prescribing "off label" is usually used for patients with fibromialgia and IBS ( which i probably have anyway) and in Europe has been a miracle pill in treating extreme agitation and fearfulness.
I am hopeful.
I keep telling myself to be hopeful.