best date ever
oh my god. last night was perfect. i could not have asked for anything more, or better or anything. he picks me up at my house and meets my dad and sees the place and we take pictures and it wasn't awkward. we went to dinner and it was amaxzing, the atmosphere and most importantly him. we were that couple in restaurants that everyone looks at, the ones who are just lost in each other's eyes and do not really notice where they are or what is going on because they only care about being with each other. we were that couple in our own world. we spent about four hours there. even the waiters made cute comments about it. he had planned all sorts of things in case we got out from dinner at different times. he went and got tickest to groundlings but we didnt get a chace to see them because we took so much time just being lost with each other, not that i am complaining because it was amazing. i could not have wanted more. by the time we finally got out of there it was around 10:30 and we just drove around and listened to music and sat in his car and listened to music and loved being with each other. it didn't feel like a first date at all, it felt like a night out with the guy i love and like coming home and being there, in love, happy, content, full. his sister seems like my sister, and his father was cool too. it seems like we are just so seemless. like our lives are perfectly integrated and in harmony and it could not have gotten any better. by the time i got home i was dreading the next 18 days without him. i know i will be busy with school and finals, and i know we will talk every day and all of that, but at the same time i just felt so happy and i am so happy. I love you Josh.