Apr 09, 2009 20:56
i don't know what to do anymore...
my parent does not talk to each other anymore.
i live in hostel so i don't quite informed about what's happening at home...
if there's any information that need to be delivered to my parent, i've to do it separately...eventhough they are living under 1 roof for god's sake...
my exam is coming soon so it kind of bothered me....
i don't care if i see other people arguing, but i hate so much when i see my parent's fights....
before this,everytime there's a hint of a fight,i will shut myself in my room n listened to the songs with max volume...
but now, i can't do that coz my new home is a lot smaller so i need to share it with my siblings....
all i can do is by listening to my mp3 or laptop with earphone on...not to forget high volume to a point that i can go deaf...
i kind of hate marriage bcoz of my parent....
i'm too afraid to fall in love with anyone bcoz too scared to get hurt...
i'm also afraid to get friendly with other people bcoz of my past experiences...
i'm so do not want that to happen again coz it's really hurt to feel that u r alone n no one is beside u eventhough there were a lot 'friend' that know u from the outside but not from the inside....
this june i'll enter the university but i still don't know how am i going to survive the new environment....
in 2 weeks i'll be going home n i'm afraid to face the real environment at home....
rl