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what a day, what a year really. so much, possibly too much, has taken place and i dont know but i feel in this awkward place. it's not that im unhappy or just content. quite the opposite actually. i'm happy, satisfied, and pleasantly pleasant. and that scares me. i think i may be saying good-bye to some of the best things in my life. how do i move on from this and begin something completely different? opposite.. everything is making zero sense but i somehow understand. i just dont know how to put it. someone is making me feel regretful for my happy experiences, without the recognition of them actually feeling they are doing this to me. i dont know. all i know is that i'm in a place in my life that is very ...nice. and i wont be made to feel that it is wrong. too much in my life has been messed up. it's time for me to enjoy something for myself. i want my own life back