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my mind has just been all over the place this weekend...so much is changing, not only my age, but everthing else. and i just can't handle this anymore. it's been going on for so long and i'm broken. i'm just ready to crash and burn and sign out for the time present. it's just, who does a girl go to when God takes so long to respond and my own thoughts are driving me crazy? absolutely. i feel like i belong in some other place or that i need to take a week or two off to just go. i need to just leave here...this house this town this life. just for a little while. my head is getting too full of ideas and opinions and words that i don't allow myself to express and i can't help myself. i've never been taught how to portray feelings and it's not something i can teach myself. where do i go from here? i'm so trapped.
God, I surrender.
God, I surrender.