Update: Fic and General.
I hope everyone is having a good Sunday and father's day. I think of all the dads among the celebs I admire and know I will be seeing some cute pics to cheer me up. I'm glad a lot of shows are on hiatus so those dads can be at home enjoying their family. I wish the same was true of everyone.
In general news. I still love living on the coast. I have good weeks and bad weeks but I'm working towards having more good days and this coming Wednesday I have a trip to the sea off the Farne Islands to swim with seals in the very cold North Sea. I have been training for a few months and having an awesome time. I intend to keep up sea swimming even after that.
My camera has been fixed. It gives me reason and confidence to go outside and I love it. My pics are not brilliant but if taking lots is good practice then I am certinly getting good practice. I am not sure if anyone would like me to share some here or not? I am still considering where to store them though since I haven't money to use a hosting site. Any ideas are welcome.
The gerbils get up to a lot of mischief, Nougat the hamster is a darling. Lili and Tiesha cats are getting old gracefully. The local seagulls are thieving little ratbags who will sneak into the house to steal given half a chance, but aren't without some cheeky charm. I've managed to plant a few flowers and vegetables in my little garden.
In fandom news. I haven't got any shows which I enjoy right now and it leaves me feeling a little adrift. I don't participate as much and I no longer watch Supernatural but I still fangirl over the old series and some of the cast and crew. I still love J2 in all it's many universes.
About my own fanworks:
First a huge apology about Inheritance. I have stopped writing it entirely. For some time I have planned to pick it back up but I can't see it happening any time soon.
The problem in Inheritance lies in it's whole premise and au. It is supposed to be an unthinkable dystopian timeline under a totalatarian regime in the U.S. where corruption is rife in government, the U.S. no longer has its alliances with Europe and Canada, a climate disaster contaminating water sources has occurred because of greed, a form of misogyny is rampant, there are concentration camps (retraining centres) and children can be torn from their real 'mother', never to be seen by them again. I started writing it while Obama was in office and I was optimistic about world progress. Then Trump took office and very soon after that, it became hard to even look at my own story. It is definitely not getting any better. So yes, maybe now I have come out and said it, the pressure will be off and I can look again, but I am not holding out a lot of hope. The current world political situation horrifies me and I think I need to take a step away with my fiction. It has a kind of happy holding place at least with the last chapter I posted.
That brings me to the whole feelings thing. I feel like a total let down and failure in giving it up and it isn't helped by the fact that I am fairly well into a completely different J2 au which was supposed to be for Big Bang but was just too big a project for it in the end. My anxiety has me frozen on it. If I am actually going to complete it then I will need to post it in wip. Without a challenge or some pressure, I don't get the words out, however, I have already let everyone down with Inheritance and I'm not going to guarantee to a time frame or even promise to finish it because apparently I am not infallible on that score. So, yes, frozen in place and not getting anywhere with it right now because of it, but this story is fun for me. I do love it's characters and it's setting. It's more of a bdsm romp through space with a bunch of cliche genres thrown together (so sue me, I like indulging in my fandom kinks).
So, I'm not sure if anyone is still reading my LJ but I'm curious to know if its worth just cutting the cord on Inheritance and launching into Black Valentine. I know, in theory I should write for myself but since it is already complete in my head, the only reason to continue would be if anyone else were willing to take a chance on it. Any thoughts?
In general news. I still love living on the coast. I have good weeks and bad weeks but I'm working towards having more good days and this coming Wednesday I have a trip to the sea off the Farne Islands to swim with seals in the very cold North Sea. I have been training for a few months and having an awesome time. I intend to keep up sea swimming even after that.
My camera has been fixed. It gives me reason and confidence to go outside and I love it. My pics are not brilliant but if taking lots is good practice then I am certinly getting good practice. I am not sure if anyone would like me to share some here or not? I am still considering where to store them though since I haven't money to use a hosting site. Any ideas are welcome.
The gerbils get up to a lot of mischief, Nougat the hamster is a darling. Lili and Tiesha cats are getting old gracefully. The local seagulls are thieving little ratbags who will sneak into the house to steal given half a chance, but aren't without some cheeky charm. I've managed to plant a few flowers and vegetables in my little garden.
In fandom news. I haven't got any shows which I enjoy right now and it leaves me feeling a little adrift. I don't participate as much and I no longer watch Supernatural but I still fangirl over the old series and some of the cast and crew. I still love J2 in all it's many universes.
About my own fanworks:
First a huge apology about Inheritance. I have stopped writing it entirely. For some time I have planned to pick it back up but I can't see it happening any time soon.
The problem in Inheritance lies in it's whole premise and au. It is supposed to be an unthinkable dystopian timeline under a totalatarian regime in the U.S. where corruption is rife in government, the U.S. no longer has its alliances with Europe and Canada, a climate disaster contaminating water sources has occurred because of greed, a form of misogyny is rampant, there are concentration camps (retraining centres) and children can be torn from their real 'mother', never to be seen by them again. I started writing it while Obama was in office and I was optimistic about world progress. Then Trump took office and very soon after that, it became hard to even look at my own story. It is definitely not getting any better. So yes, maybe now I have come out and said it, the pressure will be off and I can look again, but I am not holding out a lot of hope. The current world political situation horrifies me and I think I need to take a step away with my fiction. It has a kind of happy holding place at least with the last chapter I posted.
That brings me to the whole feelings thing. I feel like a total let down and failure in giving it up and it isn't helped by the fact that I am fairly well into a completely different J2 au which was supposed to be for Big Bang but was just too big a project for it in the end. My anxiety has me frozen on it. If I am actually going to complete it then I will need to post it in wip. Without a challenge or some pressure, I don't get the words out, however, I have already let everyone down with Inheritance and I'm not going to guarantee to a time frame or even promise to finish it because apparently I am not infallible on that score. So, yes, frozen in place and not getting anywhere with it right now because of it, but this story is fun for me. I do love it's characters and it's setting. It's more of a bdsm romp through space with a bunch of cliche genres thrown together (so sue me, I like indulging in my fandom kinks).
So, I'm not sure if anyone is still reading my LJ but I'm curious to know if its worth just cutting the cord on Inheritance and launching into Black Valentine. I know, in theory I should write for myself but since it is already complete in my head, the only reason to continue would be if anyone else were willing to take a chance on it. Any thoughts?