Happy October!
I'll start this off with my positives for the day...
1-The weather was absolutely beautiful
2-Enjoyed a nice afternoon with my family
3-Read a good chunk of my new book, Identical
4-Got buzzed off just one beer, and proud of myself for not drinking a second one
5-Everybody just loves Victoria, I'm proud to be her mom
6-Spent quality time watching Breaking Bad with my dad, which is a double positive, because I found a new show to like
So, with that down, I will say that my dad bought me the book Happiness for Dummies yesterday. I was kinda like, "really?" But there are some things in there that are useful, such as writing down all the positive things for the day. Helps me to focus on the good, instead of the bad. The shit that bothered me yesterday? Not even worth thinking about today. I will say that I successfully pissed a lot of people off yesterday proclaiming Jaime's lack of brain on facebook yesterday. It was immature, but whatevs. I have the right to say what I want. Especially when the people that bitched the most are the ones that post the dumbest shit. Besides Richard, of course. hahahaha. I'm glad I can say whatever the fuck I want on here. I really feel like venting here is helping me. Today while driving home from Octoberfest with my dad, it dawned on me that at 22 years of age, I have the option to do whatever the hell I want. Like, if I decided that I wanna stay here, that is my decision to make. I could easily settle into a job and go to the university here, they have a nursing program. I don't even like San Antonio. I feel like there is nothing for me there, not really anway. My family is spread out, although Geoff is still there, that is a little bit of incentive. Besides Rebecca, I don't have any real friends. Jaime is there, and I don't even know how I feel about that. I guess the only reason I have it in my head that I am going back is because I don't want Victoria's life divided in half. Shit, I could decide to totally exercise my freedom and take Nikki up on her offer to stay in Lubbock with her and Jason. It is halfway between Jaime's family and mine. This realization gives me even more motivation to make the right moves. I have some important decision making ahead of me. If I am successful, the world will be mine and Tori's oyster. And "if" is not an option. I'm spent...
1-The weather was absolutely beautiful
2-Enjoyed a nice afternoon with my family
3-Read a good chunk of my new book, Identical
4-Got buzzed off just one beer, and proud of myself for not drinking a second one
5-Everybody just loves Victoria, I'm proud to be her mom
6-Spent quality time watching Breaking Bad with my dad, which is a double positive, because I found a new show to like
So, with that down, I will say that my dad bought me the book Happiness for Dummies yesterday. I was kinda like, "really?" But there are some things in there that are useful, such as writing down all the positive things for the day. Helps me to focus on the good, instead of the bad. The shit that bothered me yesterday? Not even worth thinking about today. I will say that I successfully pissed a lot of people off yesterday proclaiming Jaime's lack of brain on facebook yesterday. It was immature, but whatevs. I have the right to say what I want. Especially when the people that bitched the most are the ones that post the dumbest shit. Besides Richard, of course. hahahaha. I'm glad I can say whatever the fuck I want on here. I really feel like venting here is helping me. Today while driving home from Octoberfest with my dad, it dawned on me that at 22 years of age, I have the option to do whatever the hell I want. Like, if I decided that I wanna stay here, that is my decision to make. I could easily settle into a job and go to the university here, they have a nursing program. I don't even like San Antonio. I feel like there is nothing for me there, not really anway. My family is spread out, although Geoff is still there, that is a little bit of incentive. Besides Rebecca, I don't have any real friends. Jaime is there, and I don't even know how I feel about that. I guess the only reason I have it in my head that I am going back is because I don't want Victoria's life divided in half. Shit, I could decide to totally exercise my freedom and take Nikki up on her offer to stay in Lubbock with her and Jason. It is halfway between Jaime's family and mine. This realization gives me even more motivation to make the right moves. I have some important decision making ahead of me. If I am successful, the world will be mine and Tori's oyster. And "if" is not an option. I'm spent...