Tonight was... different
We all had a great time - just like old times. Pretty much. It wasn't me that Gabe sang to though. Well, maybe one or two, but it was mostly to her. Why did I expect otherwise? It was hard though, not being Mrs. Evans. I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did.
I know it seems selfish of him, all but living here in my home with her, but I'm not sure he sees it that way. And then again maybe he does. He's still so burdened down with guilt that his pain is palpable. He tries so hard to make everyone happy. Miranda, me, Kyle... Everyone but himself when it comes right down to it.
And then again he's so very selfish... Wanting it all - and having it all. His pain is the price to be paid, I guess.
It was hard to see my daughter on her daddy's lap, placing her hand on Miranda's belly and talking to her "Cee Cee" too. Just jealousy on my part again. And I have those moments too... Gabe and Chloe and I snuggling, and Chloe talking to little Kyle. She wants to know if the baby will look like Kyle since they share the same name. God forbid! Not really... Kyle is a great-looking man. But little Kyle will look just like his father.
Gabe and Jen finally got to catch up a bit. They haven't had a chance to really chat since she came back, and he was so distracted when he was with us in Montana that they barely said a word to each other. They both needed some time alone. They have always been very, very close.
After they got back, I sensed a little tension between Gabe and Miranda. I didn't pry. He'll tell me if he wants to know. It was shortly after that that I took Chloe in and put her to bed. Gabe came right up and tucked her in, and then spent another half hour chatting with me. He didn't seem in any hurry to get back down to the beach with Mia and Kyle and Mirry. *shrugs* Who knows...
I tempted fate and bought baby clothes today. I doubt that my son will want to wear his sister's hand-me-downs. Buying clothes for male infants isn't near as easy as for girls. They just don't have the selection. Jen said we should add new line of clothes to what we already have - alternative wear for the discriminating infant. Sounds good to me!
It's late and I'm tired, and from my bedroom window I can see the bonfire is now down to glowing coals. I also see four bodies out there, and none are sitting too close to the other. I can understand Kyle and Mia even though he is a little sweet on her but Gabe and Miranda? After the last few days one would think that they would be joined at the hip! if not other places.... Ooh. donot even think about that, Annie.
Okay. That's it. Bed. Sleep. No dreams. The good ones are too heartbreaking to remember and the bad ones... *shakes head*
I know it seems selfish of him, all but living here in my home with her, but I'm not sure he sees it that way. And then again maybe he does. He's still so burdened down with guilt that his pain is palpable. He tries so hard to make everyone happy. Miranda, me, Kyle... Everyone but himself when it comes right down to it.
And then again he's so very selfish... Wanting it all - and having it all. His pain is the price to be paid, I guess.
It was hard to see my daughter on her daddy's lap, placing her hand on Miranda's belly and talking to her "Cee Cee" too. Just jealousy on my part again. And I have those moments too... Gabe and Chloe and I snuggling, and Chloe talking to little Kyle. She wants to know if the baby will look like Kyle since they share the same name. God forbid! Not really... Kyle is a great-looking man. But little Kyle will look just like his father.
Gabe and Jen finally got to catch up a bit. They haven't had a chance to really chat since she came back, and he was so distracted when he was with us in Montana that they barely said a word to each other. They both needed some time alone. They have always been very, very close.
After they got back, I sensed a little tension between Gabe and Miranda. I didn't pry. He'll tell me if he wants to know. It was shortly after that that I took Chloe in and put her to bed. Gabe came right up and tucked her in, and then spent another half hour chatting with me. He didn't seem in any hurry to get back down to the beach with Mia and Kyle and Mirry. *shrugs* Who knows...
I tempted fate and bought baby clothes today. I doubt that my son will want to wear his sister's hand-me-downs. Buying clothes for male infants isn't near as easy as for girls. They just don't have the selection. Jen said we should add new line of clothes to what we already have - alternative wear for the discriminating infant. Sounds good to me!
It's late and I'm tired, and from my bedroom window I can see the bonfire is now down to glowing coals. I also see four bodies out there, and none are sitting too close to the other. I can understand Kyle and Mia even though he is a little sweet on her but Gabe and Miranda? After the last few days one would think that they would be joined at the hip! if not other places.... Ooh. donot even think about that, Annie.
Okay. That's it. Bed. Sleep. No dreams. The good ones are too heartbreaking to remember and the bad ones... *shakes head*