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[annieover]

There is something about my social wiring that I much prefer the spontaneous outing to a planned one.  This weekend in is the church retreat. I wanted to go. I was looking forward to it. However,  the closer the date of the event gets, the more I don't want to go.  The longer I have to think about something, the more time I have to imagine why it's

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[jimbow8]

This makes perfect sense to me. I tend to also talk myself out of things and lower my expectations and enthusiasm as events get closer.

[annieover]

What I hate about it is that usually, I have a great time if I make myself go anyway. But the reticence that builds up before an event sometimes becomes overwhelming. I can feel my anxiety building up about this weekend, and there really is no justifiable reason for it. Even if it does turn out to be Suck City, I have my car and I have the capability to leave.

[luminousx]

I'm similar. There is a 'sweet spot' for me that isn't too last minute but isn't too long term. If I need to commit to something to far away, I feel like I'm cutting myself off from other potential options and if it is too last minute, I feel like I will be ill prepared for it.

[annieover]

I suck at preparing for anything no matter how much time I'm given, so at least if things happen at the last minute, I have a "legitimate" reason for being ill-prepared.