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[anniemurder]

Alright everyone. It HAS been a very long time since i've poured my heart out in here. So here i go.
lets start off with... wow. i dont even know where to startt. OK. i know where to start.

-Talking to James. Its new. its exciting. We never have a dull moment in our conversations. He is one of the sweetest guys EVER. like. ever. We had our "serious"

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well i read your entire entry and i just wanted to say, don't thank me. i consider you a friend, for here and to always stay. as for the other people. your job, friends and family will always be there. but you're just like me. they can't fill a certain void, so you're searching for the love that can only be given to you by a boy. so you've been looking and you've found certain boys that have falttered your heart, some make you cry and some make you laugh and love your life and everything about yourself. as for your self-image. i know how you feel, i feel that way always. i am never comfortable in my own skin, i have lost all self-confidence when i met that boy peter i told you about. i tried my best to be great in everything, to have the best hair, eyes, figure, smile. everything you can think of, i've tried. he just won't see how beautiful i can honestly be, and after two long dreadful years i can honestly say, he's made the biggest mistake of his entire life. i gave him everything, i sent him letters and gifts, i even gave him my entire heart. it wasn't enough. he's just so selfish. always wanting what he can't have, and one day he'll value me. and i won't be there. jesse knows that he can play with your heart because you let him. when he pulled you aside, i saw him. he was jealous because of well you know who. and as for nathan, he's doing the same. boys love to hold on to the things that make them, "men." but really they're just pussies.

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PS i love that song. but it reminds me of brian. but for some odd reason everytime i open windows media, it's the first thing i listen to and the last. i guess i love to savour him as much as i can.