you can lie if its comforting.
i've been neglecting this. really. it used to be my best friend. && now. i feel bad.
i need someplace to get everything out tho. Cuz its all just killing me.
i miss not talking to people who've been my best friends for a while.
(kay8 & brittni)
i miss the excitment of new love.
i miss you.
you confuse the FUCK out of me. like honestly. Either you want to be with me. or you dont. NOT THAT HARD. I'm tired of tip-toeing around trying not to annoy you. Do you know what that feels like? I feel like everything i do, is just a fucked up mess. I want to come see you. I want to have something with you. idk what though. but i know i want it. its funny. when i dont look at your pictures or read your messages.. i'm fine without you. but once i look at them, i breakdown and just want to call you and come to you. Like it KILLS me. All the fucking time. since the day we met. i was into you, you were into me. what happened?!
why does this ALWAYS happen? whats wrong with me? Am i that hideous? Am i that fat? I'm trying to lose weight. I really am. I'm trying to be the perfect image for you. Yeah. this is for you. I wish you knew about this. No I dont. Cuz then, i'd be "that pshyco girl". && I'm halfway there....
i've had about a million breakdowns this week. && its only thursday. I'm scared to talk to you. I wish there wasnt distance. I wish there werent barriers. I wish there werent obstacle. && I wish this wasnt secret.
i'm VERY tired. I will write a great deal tomorrow.
i need someplace to get everything out tho. Cuz its all just killing me.
i miss not talking to people who've been my best friends for a while.
(kay8 & brittni)
i miss the excitment of new love.
i miss you.
you confuse the FUCK out of me. like honestly. Either you want to be with me. or you dont. NOT THAT HARD. I'm tired of tip-toeing around trying not to annoy you. Do you know what that feels like? I feel like everything i do, is just a fucked up mess. I want to come see you. I want to have something with you. idk what though. but i know i want it. its funny. when i dont look at your pictures or read your messages.. i'm fine without you. but once i look at them, i breakdown and just want to call you and come to you. Like it KILLS me. All the fucking time. since the day we met. i was into you, you were into me. what happened?!
why does this ALWAYS happen? whats wrong with me? Am i that hideous? Am i that fat? I'm trying to lose weight. I really am. I'm trying to be the perfect image for you. Yeah. this is for you. I wish you knew about this. No I dont. Cuz then, i'd be "that pshyco girl". && I'm halfway there....
i've had about a million breakdowns this week. && its only thursday. I'm scared to talk to you. I wish there wasnt distance. I wish there werent barriers. I wish there werent obstacle. && I wish this wasnt secret.
i'm VERY tired. I will write a great deal tomorrow.