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[annielinda]

i hate that he can be so disarmingly charming.

and i hate that he can get to me.

and i hate that his family loves me and my family loves him.

and i hate that he can just look at me and make me feel like this.

and i hate that i cannot let myself just go with it, that i can't just allow myself to have feelings.

and i hate that he can one minute make me more angry than anyone ever has and the next make me laugh like i have never laughed before.

and i hate that i feel out of control when i am around him.

but i love it.