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sooooo i think i have set a date to move. well i didnt set it, but i asked jessie when would be good and she said july 15th. so...we'll shoot for that. i feel like such a horrible person for leaving my mom. it's so much different from when i moved into the dorm my freshman year and into a house this past year. i still saw her at least once a week. i know moving away is part of life, but it just sucks that since jessie is already living out of town, i have to be the one that leaves her all alone. and i know she doesnt want me to. she "jokingly" makes these comments about her being lonely, or says something about how i'll miss the cats too much, or comments like "what are you gonna do when you're starving and you have no food or money", because i always go to her house in that situation. or ask her to go out to eat with me. so then i start crying and i tell her how i dont want her to be alone and how she should move closer to denton, and then she says stuff like "annie, im kidding. ill be fine. i dont want to move...i love my job and the people i work with...blah blah" and then im just like.. "whatever mom. i'll come visit you a lot. now make me a sandwich." not really, but...it really will be hard. im going to miss her so much, and ill probably have to talk to her on the phone every day. for a while, at least. i know, i know. i'm 20. shut up. i think im already emotionally unstable to begin with, so i hope i dont have some kind of breakdown. i mean i guess it would be neat. jessie, be sure to take pictures if it happens.