Yah...A REALLY Merry Christmas
So I did get payed well. Double actually, and all I had to do was play winnie the pooh and "baby". Yah it was fun. So...Last night after babysitting Parisa came over! Yay! I hadn't seen her in sooo long and it was really good to talk to her and catch up on the last year. We just ate and stuff and listened to Mr. John, and then gen came over and claire too. we all went to see meet the fockers. funniest mother fucking movie. owen wilson and ben stiller are the hottest mother fuckers ever. after the movie parisa and gen had to go home but claire came over and spent the night. we had tortillas and peanut butter...very good snack. in the morning we watched miss congeniality another classic with another hot mother fucker: Benjamin Bratt! Then we walked to starbucks and then all this drama happened and CONTINUED when we went to the mall with casey and it was just really bad and now everyone is mad and crabby. so after the mall my mom and i and casey went out to smokin petes bbq and i still feel like barfing all of it up...even though it was good. there was live music too so we danced and clapped. THEN we got dropped off at gens and it sucked ass. it was weird and lame and tense and all of us were being assholes and i didnt like it one bit. gen was sick, casey was rude, i was crabby, it wasnt a good mix. then i get home to a new load of drama and i hear that its all been caused by me. but when i try to work things out with people they are too busy and distracted talking to their other friends and taking nice breaks from all the drama so basically this night has sucked a lot of hairy dick and it wasnt fun AT all. i guess i need to tone it down or stop trying to fucking hard but i dont know. whatever. this is soo annoying. im nto trying to exclude people im not trying to be a bitch. its not like i want people to be pissed at me. i dont even know im doing these things half the time and when i do know i dont realize to what extent is to far. i dont know what is wrong with me ive always been like this and i thought that i had a handle on this but obviosuly not. whatev i cant handle this anymore tonight. i cant wait until tomorrow so i can straighten all this out and it will be CHRISTMAS EVE! And then Christmas!
Now here's a song:
My stupid mouth,
Has got me in trouble.
I said too much again.
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see she was offended.
She said well anyway...
Just dying for a subject change.
Oh, it’s another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, what’s a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips. she looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the
Salt and pepper shaker.
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
Slipped out and what went wrong.
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed.
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, what’s a boy to do?
I guess he better find one.
I’m never speaking up again. it only hurts me.
I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again.
Starting now
One more thing.
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it’s all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny.
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
I’m never speaking up again it only hurts me.
I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again
Starting now
Now here's a song:
My stupid mouth,
Has got me in trouble.
I said too much again.
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see she was offended.
She said well anyway...
Just dying for a subject change.
Oh, it’s another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, what’s a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips. she looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the
Salt and pepper shaker.
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
Slipped out and what went wrong.
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed.
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, what’s a boy to do?
I guess he better find one.
I’m never speaking up again. it only hurts me.
I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again.
Starting now
One more thing.
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it’s all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny.
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
I’m never speaking up again it only hurts me.
I’d rather be a mystery than she desert me.
Oh I’m never speaking up again
Starting now