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I just got up at little while ago...my legs STILL hurt from running Tuesday night, it's hot and stuffy in my house, i have a million thi8ngs to do, my tummy hurts and worst of all.....I STILL HAVEN'T READ THE BOOK YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but other than that things have been pretty good! Erika and i got THE PANTS yesterday!!! we found them after 7 different pairs for only $3.98! SO the we had a ritual complete with 9 candels, cookies dipped in cookie dough and a million other kinds of junk food!
I am NOT looking forward to tonight too much...it's emily matt's sweet 16 party! i mean it's not that i'm dreading it, because i'm not, i just...i don't even know how to describe it. it's almost haunting....i walk into that house and i just remember all of these old things and i start to feel old feelings and everything that i've ever known and thought gets all mixed up inside of me and i don't even know who i am anymore. but maybe that's why i'm going..."what don't kill us makes us strong." i will just want to curl up in my bed and cry tonight...so nobody ruin that for me!!! plus i have to dress up as a boy! but i hope that emily has fun...that's all that matters!
well i have to go do a million things...6 will be here before i know it!
i guess this is it until CHICAGO!!! yes, that's tomorrow! pray for me on Saturday, that's the party, the big day when i meet a million people! i am so scared!
but other than that things have been pretty good! Erika and i got THE PANTS yesterday!!! we found them after 7 different pairs for only $3.98! SO the we had a ritual complete with 9 candels, cookies dipped in cookie dough and a million other kinds of junk food!
I am NOT looking forward to tonight too much...it's emily matt's sweet 16 party! i mean it's not that i'm dreading it, because i'm not, i just...i don't even know how to describe it. it's almost haunting....i walk into that house and i just remember all of these old things and i start to feel old feelings and everything that i've ever known and thought gets all mixed up inside of me and i don't even know who i am anymore. but maybe that's why i'm going..."what don't kill us makes us strong." i will just want to curl up in my bed and cry tonight...so nobody ruin that for me!!! plus i have to dress up as a boy! but i hope that emily has fun...that's all that matters!
well i have to go do a million things...6 will be here before i know it!
i guess this is it until CHICAGO!!! yes, that's tomorrow! pray for me on Saturday, that's the party, the big day when i meet a million people! i am so scared!