bllaahhh...
it's weird that im posting to this again...especially since i walked away from it for so long. anyways after weaving 8 million glass pieces i decided to look at my profile on this. wow. definitely can tell that i created this in about 8th grade. one of my interests is: head shops. haha. not to mention that i maybe listen to 1 of 3 or 4 of those bands once a month if im lucky, and the rest just suck. or dont exist anymore.
i've done so much research on roman glass in the past few weeks i think it could be a major contributor as to why my head hurts so much as of late. that and the ever changing air pressure that is bringing monsoons of rain to alfred. all that research and i still feel like im handing in a C paper at best. my teacher is an easy going guy but a hard grader...hope i do better than i think or i may actually fail a college course. ive never failed any class...now is not the time to start.
i was reading an entry from august where i obviously had a lot of worries going through my head. i think it was healthy for me to vent that all out, and as i mentioned there, there are few people that i care to vent to or would want to put through something like that, so the silent but always judging web may be the best place. i am kind of angry that i havn't fixed or resolved some of the issues i mentioned. i swear im reverting back to a shy child or something -i cant seem to make good friends with people any more. numbers aren't important to me but quality is and frankly i dont seem to have either. and what saddens me more is that come may, some of my closest friends and people i am starting to become more familiar with are graduating, and returning to where they came from have it be korea, japan, china, LA... next fall is going to be an interesting and kind of depressing place with so many leaving.... it also makes me think about where i'll be going after next december...or for that matter this summer. (i need a job uber bad!) i'm in the point in my life where every thing is going so slow but so incredibly fast that i just dont know what to do and how to handle it... guess thats the funny thing about growing up...
ok, back to paper times, and counting down the days to break.
peace.
i've done so much research on roman glass in the past few weeks i think it could be a major contributor as to why my head hurts so much as of late. that and the ever changing air pressure that is bringing monsoons of rain to alfred. all that research and i still feel like im handing in a C paper at best. my teacher is an easy going guy but a hard grader...hope i do better than i think or i may actually fail a college course. ive never failed any class...now is not the time to start.
i was reading an entry from august where i obviously had a lot of worries going through my head. i think it was healthy for me to vent that all out, and as i mentioned there, there are few people that i care to vent to or would want to put through something like that, so the silent but always judging web may be the best place. i am kind of angry that i havn't fixed or resolved some of the issues i mentioned. i swear im reverting back to a shy child or something -i cant seem to make good friends with people any more. numbers aren't important to me but quality is and frankly i dont seem to have either. and what saddens me more is that come may, some of my closest friends and people i am starting to become more familiar with are graduating, and returning to where they came from have it be korea, japan, china, LA... next fall is going to be an interesting and kind of depressing place with so many leaving.... it also makes me think about where i'll be going after next december...or for that matter this summer. (i need a job uber bad!) i'm in the point in my life where every thing is going so slow but so incredibly fast that i just dont know what to do and how to handle it... guess thats the funny thing about growing up...
ok, back to paper times, and counting down the days to break.
peace.