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my aunt leaves for florida tomorrow morning and i kind of don't know what to do with myself.
things have been good for the most part lately, but i'm afraid that i'm letting it slip away. i'm pretty much failing geometry because i've become so apathetic. that's exactly what i've wanted for so long now. to become this apathetic. and now that i'm finally at that stage, it's migrated into my schoolwork as well. so now i'm all into that, 'i'm going to be a failure and end up at middlesex or umass lowell' mindset. be stuck in westford for the rest of my life because i'm a big fat failure who can't handle anything. these feelings aren't even me. a lot of you met me in middle school when i had my depression and shit. but everyday now i remind myself that that wasn't me. that's not who i am. so why am i getting these feelings of failure again? all i have to say is;;; what the fuck, brain? stop being a faghat and get back on track. i think that's why i don't want my aunt to be gone. even if it's just for a week.
okay i'm done. will probably delete in an hour or something. peace kids.
things have been good for the most part lately, but i'm afraid that i'm letting it slip away. i'm pretty much failing geometry because i've become so apathetic. that's exactly what i've wanted for so long now. to become this apathetic. and now that i'm finally at that stage, it's migrated into my schoolwork as well. so now i'm all into that, 'i'm going to be a failure and end up at middlesex or umass lowell' mindset. be stuck in westford for the rest of my life because i'm a big fat failure who can't handle anything. these feelings aren't even me. a lot of you met me in middle school when i had my depression and shit. but everyday now i remind myself that that wasn't me. that's not who i am. so why am i getting these feelings of failure again? all i have to say is;;; what the fuck, brain? stop being a faghat and get back on track. i think that's why i don't want my aunt to be gone. even if it's just for a week.
okay i'm done. will probably delete in an hour or something. peace kids.