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wow being sick sucks. and i think it sucks even more being away from home and being sick. i'm so much of a baby when i'm sick that i need to be held and taken care of..lol. And since I'm on this new ADD meds, I can't take sudafed or anything w/ sudafed in it, so I'm battling this cold, cold turkey and its real rough. Well haven't updated in quite some time. Didn't really feel like it, and to much shit to even write about.
Well I'm back in Kzoo and I LOVE it more than anything. Sometimes I'll just be walking on campus and get a lil' choked up because I'm so frickin' happy..I know its lame...lol. And living in the apartment is 239820938 times better then living in the dorms. I dont regret the dorms, but its a one time experience and not worth doing it more than that. Seriously our balcony is the size of our dorm room last year. Its a beautiful thing. We're all getting adjusted to eachother. Its weird how your roomates kinda become your parents that you check in with. And every once in awhile one of us will take the "mother role" alittle too far, but we get through it and realize its not worth the battle. Our neighbors upstairs were pretty sweet. There is this one Saif who always has pot and is from Sri Lanka and always wants us to smoke w/ him. I dig it. I've become quite the betty homemaker around here. I've cooked more then I ever did at home and do dishes and laundry. Its weird to be on your own and you have to be responsible because NO ONE else will do it for you unless you do it yourself. Its a very maturing thing.
My classes are not too bad. So far not to much homework, just a lot of note taking and a few small papers. I've met a few people in my classes too that seem pretty sweet. I do somehow attract the homeless people that wander campus and they'll always end up asking me out or talking to me about religion (because they're all sent from Jesus to talk to me) its not the worst thing, but can get real creepster sometimes. I work in one of the cafeteria's on campus w/ Dustin and Meg. I REALLY like it. It sucked at first being the new guy and not knowing anyone, but each day it gets better and better. and Oh gosh I was talking to this guy today about all my fucked up guy situations and how I always get screwed over and how I didnt understand, and he was like,'It's because you're pretty.' and I was like,'me? no! I'm def. not,' and he was like, 'well believe me you are and you're cool and fun and have a cool personality, you're just picking the wrong guys!" I honestly think that was one of the nicest conversations I've ever had with someone. Granted he's a guy, and I really think guys mean not even half of what they say, but it was atleast nice to hear, even if it was just bullshit.
I do miss Muskegon a ton. Not so much my family, my dad def. not. because that went to shit right before I left. But my mom is struggling with work and some other things and I just want to be home and take care of her. But she keeps saying its best for me to be where I am and she'll be fine. Its just so hard that I can't be with her and comforting her. I just pray alot that she'll get through all of this and people will understand. But I'm pretty sure some people at my church can go FUCK THEMSELVES for making her feel the way she feels. And I just know that they'll get what they deserve in the end. I miss Birr a ton. He was one of the people that was ALWAYS there for me and we understood each other and genuinely cared about each other. But I'm working on maintaining that friendship no matter what. I plan on not getting wrapped up in another guy for a long time. It always ends in heartache, and I honestly can't take much more of it anymore. It ruins alot of things for me because I always put my whole heart into it and neglect other things that should be my priority, like friends family relationships. eh for now I'm just gonna focus on what really matters right now like school and my mom.
well I've got some laundry in, even though I just ran a whole bleach load and didn't add any damn bleach. I suck at this..lol. I'll prob. take a nap and watch Weeds, which is the best fuckin show omg omg! Then class tonight and sleeping some more. I'll be in Muskegon this weekend watching the house for the fam. They're all going racing in Ohio. I def. want to see a few of you and take it easy with my dogs.
*sorry so long*
Well I'm back in Kzoo and I LOVE it more than anything. Sometimes I'll just be walking on campus and get a lil' choked up because I'm so frickin' happy..I know its lame...lol. And living in the apartment is 239820938 times better then living in the dorms. I dont regret the dorms, but its a one time experience and not worth doing it more than that. Seriously our balcony is the size of our dorm room last year. Its a beautiful thing. We're all getting adjusted to eachother. Its weird how your roomates kinda become your parents that you check in with. And every once in awhile one of us will take the "mother role" alittle too far, but we get through it and realize its not worth the battle. Our neighbors upstairs were pretty sweet. There is this one Saif who always has pot and is from Sri Lanka and always wants us to smoke w/ him. I dig it. I've become quite the betty homemaker around here. I've cooked more then I ever did at home and do dishes and laundry. Its weird to be on your own and you have to be responsible because NO ONE else will do it for you unless you do it yourself. Its a very maturing thing.
My classes are not too bad. So far not to much homework, just a lot of note taking and a few small papers. I've met a few people in my classes too that seem pretty sweet. I do somehow attract the homeless people that wander campus and they'll always end up asking me out or talking to me about religion (because they're all sent from Jesus to talk to me) its not the worst thing, but can get real creepster sometimes. I work in one of the cafeteria's on campus w/ Dustin and Meg. I REALLY like it. It sucked at first being the new guy and not knowing anyone, but each day it gets better and better. and Oh gosh I was talking to this guy today about all my fucked up guy situations and how I always get screwed over and how I didnt understand, and he was like,'It's because you're pretty.' and I was like,'me? no! I'm def. not,' and he was like, 'well believe me you are and you're cool and fun and have a cool personality, you're just picking the wrong guys!" I honestly think that was one of the nicest conversations I've ever had with someone. Granted he's a guy, and I really think guys mean not even half of what they say, but it was atleast nice to hear, even if it was just bullshit.
I do miss Muskegon a ton. Not so much my family, my dad def. not. because that went to shit right before I left. But my mom is struggling with work and some other things and I just want to be home and take care of her. But she keeps saying its best for me to be where I am and she'll be fine. Its just so hard that I can't be with her and comforting her. I just pray alot that she'll get through all of this and people will understand. But I'm pretty sure some people at my church can go FUCK THEMSELVES for making her feel the way she feels. And I just know that they'll get what they deserve in the end. I miss Birr a ton. He was one of the people that was ALWAYS there for me and we understood each other and genuinely cared about each other. But I'm working on maintaining that friendship no matter what. I plan on not getting wrapped up in another guy for a long time. It always ends in heartache, and I honestly can't take much more of it anymore. It ruins alot of things for me because I always put my whole heart into it and neglect other things that should be my priority, like friends family relationships. eh for now I'm just gonna focus on what really matters right now like school and my mom.
well I've got some laundry in, even though I just ran a whole bleach load and didn't add any damn bleach. I suck at this..lol. I'll prob. take a nap and watch Weeds, which is the best fuckin show omg omg! Then class tonight and sleeping some more. I'll be in Muskegon this weekend watching the house for the fam. They're all going racing in Ohio. I def. want to see a few of you and take it easy with my dogs.
*sorry so long*