Today
Today I will confont one of my greatest fears. One that I have to deal with time after time. On surveys when it says "What is your greatest fear?" I usually just put death. Which is true, but lately I've been thinking and I think my greatest fear is talking to my father.
Not saying Hi, Bye, or talking about college shit. But telling him what I want is very difficult. Mainly because I know he won't take me seriously. And because I know he'll freak out. And because I know everytime I try to and he gets sick in some way my mom has to butt into the business and tell me it's my fault he's sick.
I dunno, I've been planning to do this for days. But I just can't seem to. The conditions are never perfect and I now know they never will be.
So now, the most I'm hoping for is that my stepmother will be out of the room. Because if I talk to my dad and she is in the room, she'll get loud and then everything will go sour.
So, I've got to stop stalling. Anyway, what have I got to lose? Nothing.
Not saying Hi, Bye, or talking about college shit. But telling him what I want is very difficult. Mainly because I know he won't take me seriously. And because I know he'll freak out. And because I know everytime I try to and he gets sick in some way my mom has to butt into the business and tell me it's my fault he's sick.
I dunno, I've been planning to do this for days. But I just can't seem to. The conditions are never perfect and I now know they never will be.
So now, the most I'm hoping for is that my stepmother will be out of the room. Because if I talk to my dad and she is in the room, she'll get loud and then everything will go sour.
So, I've got to stop stalling. Anyway, what have I got to lose? Nothing.