ACCEPTANCE.
You know what, I think I'm finally ready.
The fact that I was going to leave home and live in San Diego was always a scary fact for me. Am I going to be able to make friends easily? Am I going to procrastinate like I did in high school and screw myself over? Am I going to be able to support myself? Am I going to play harder than I work? How much am I going to miss the people here at home and the friends who are hundreds of miles away? (like Molly) But you know what? I think I'm ready. My anxiety has been smashed by some sort of assurance that tells me that I'll be okay. I don't really know how to explain it, but I mean, I already made some awesome friends during orientation. That's a start, right? I signed up for classes that are in the afternoon so that if I DO procrastinate, at least I have a couple hours in the morning to do whatever I need to do. Carreer Services at UCSD can get me a job easier than my going out to find a job (or so they say)... UCSD is so not a party school, it's rather boring if you ask me. And if I miss the people down here, they're always a phone call or an IM away. AND I'm coming up here every other week at the least (I hope) so hopefully some of ya'll will be home too so we can play.
Done, Good. CONQUERED! In fact, I cannot WAIT to go to college. Welcome Week is packed with tons of activites. I just hope it doesn't get too boring after that.
Oh yeah, It's already been five months. Can we go longer? You know with college getting into the middle of it and all. We'll see... I'll try my bestest.
You know I noticed a bad quality of mine recently. I realized that if someone does something wrong or something I don't like, instead of trying to fix that problem by talking to them, I go ahead and perfom that action right back at them. I guess I'm hoping that they'll learn from their doings by getting a taste of their own medicine. I don't know. I'll try and fix this flaw of mine. I guess I just don't like confronting people when I'm angry or dissapointed. Don't worry, I highly doubt that this goes out to anybody who reads my Live Journal, so you guys are safe from my wrath! HAHAHA just kidding =) =) =)
The fact that I was going to leave home and live in San Diego was always a scary fact for me. Am I going to be able to make friends easily? Am I going to procrastinate like I did in high school and screw myself over? Am I going to be able to support myself? Am I going to play harder than I work? How much am I going to miss the people here at home and the friends who are hundreds of miles away? (like Molly) But you know what? I think I'm ready. My anxiety has been smashed by some sort of assurance that tells me that I'll be okay. I don't really know how to explain it, but I mean, I already made some awesome friends during orientation. That's a start, right? I signed up for classes that are in the afternoon so that if I DO procrastinate, at least I have a couple hours in the morning to do whatever I need to do. Carreer Services at UCSD can get me a job easier than my going out to find a job (or so they say)... UCSD is so not a party school, it's rather boring if you ask me. And if I miss the people down here, they're always a phone call or an IM away. AND I'm coming up here every other week at the least (I hope) so hopefully some of ya'll will be home too so we can play.
Done, Good. CONQUERED! In fact, I cannot WAIT to go to college. Welcome Week is packed with tons of activites. I just hope it doesn't get too boring after that.
Oh yeah, It's already been five months. Can we go longer? You know with college getting into the middle of it and all. We'll see... I'll try my bestest.
You know I noticed a bad quality of mine recently. I realized that if someone does something wrong or something I don't like, instead of trying to fix that problem by talking to them, I go ahead and perfom that action right back at them. I guess I'm hoping that they'll learn from their doings by getting a taste of their own medicine. I don't know. I'll try and fix this flaw of mine. I guess I just don't like confronting people when I'm angry or dissapointed. Don't worry, I highly doubt that this goes out to anybody who reads my Live Journal, so you guys are safe from my wrath! HAHAHA just kidding =) =) =)