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today is my only day off out of the week, so i stayed in bed until one. pamela called me today, i can't wait for her to get here thursday, and then we'll be leaving for florida on friday, god willing. i can't wait to see my family, i miss them so much. i called my grandma after i got off of the phone with pamela, and she said that the baby shower is going to be at the family reunion, so that will be awesome. there should be a lot of people there that i don't normally get to see. grandma told me that she had pamela order me a crib, so that is one less thing that i have to worry about. i went out and bought a baby bouncer yesterday. god i can't wait till my daughter is born, i want to hold her so bad. but most of all, i just want her the hell out of my body. we have no water, either because our well is dry or the water mysteriously running up the crack of our driveway is because of a busted water line. arghh, so i sorted all our laundry and have to take that next door to alex's grandma's to wash, and to take a shower. once we get back from florida, hopefully alex will have a job and we can start saving for the $300 we need for the apartment we want. it's so hard having to try and do everything on my own, especially being eight months pregnant now. but the past week has been a lot better. each day i come home from work, alex has cleaned the house and is outside doing lots of yardwork. he told me it kills him that i have to get up and go to work while he gets to stay home and sleep. a lot of people think he's worthless cause he's not working, but it's really eating him alive. and they just don't see the things that i see. nobody has ever been there for me the way that alex is, not only is he my lover, but he really is my best friend. we haven't been arguing or fighting over stupid shit in like two or three weeks now, and that was the only thing that was driving me crazy. and we talked about it, and are in the process of fixing it. every night we lay awake together just talking about everything. he talks about the things that he's scared of, the way he feels, and everything that men think they're supposed to be macho about. he's so excited about being a daddy. i love him so much, he's so good to me. i told john that he's been a better father to me over this last year than my dad has been in the past twenty. i told him that he's going to be the only grandpa my baby knows. i love alex's family, they all treat me so good, always has. even though my hormones are through the freaking roof right now, i've never been happier in my life. i can't wait to go to florida though. so i guess that's all for now.