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So as always, my plans back fired again. So i thought Id be a smart ass and play around with tom online so I made this fake screen name and started flirting with him and bein stupid and I sent him this pic of some way hot chick and all of a sudden the joke turned into him actually liking "this girl" I made up. He is arranging to meet her and everything, and when he finds out that it is me, he freaks out and says that he can't handle my mind games. Yeah i probably did take it too far, but i wouldnt have done so had he been a little less responsive. Anyways we broke up. He said he loves making me feel bad because it makes him feel better. i am miserable and kinda hysterical. I feel lost and confused. It really hasnt even sunk in yet. If he gets so upset over something so little and stupid, i have to question how much he really loved me anyways. I was just a zombie today. Umm so I guess Im on the market again, if any one thinks they can handle me and all my emotional bagage. Actually I think Im too much for anyone to deal with. And the phrase better to have loved and lost is untrue. I never wanna care about anyone ever again, cuz it isnt worth the pain that comes with it in the end. Im too old to be 18.