tie yourself to me....
Im pissed so most of you can stop reading right now cuz this is now for my benifit so that i can get all this out, it is not meant to entertain anyone. Fuck. Partying is alright in my book, but someone i care about partying in bad situations is not fuckin okee. So yeah double standards. I dont not use any substances unless I am with people I know and/or trust which means that I never touch anything at any parties in AA. The only time Im under the influence of anythign is in my dorm with my roomies. However, Tom went to some bicthes house last night that we met at a concert long ago, and hut the bottle real hard. Hmm, funny, he wont drink with me and his brother but he got smashed at some bitches apartment. He claims he wasnt drunk but.... 3 shots of jagermeister + 1 shot of Cuervo + 1 shot of Jack + a couple of beers + tom's skinny low tolerance ass = drunk as shit no matter what he says. Trust me I know his tolerance, I seem to remember cleaning up his puke all night after only 3 shots of red label. Plus hes got some really cute scars on his forehead now.... apparently from a beer can. And he made out with a dog, funny Ill admit, but not really something you wanna hear about someone you care about. Sounds like he was really controlled. I guess alot of people have moments liek this and of course I forgive him, but then I stumbled accross some evidence of past women in his life, that just didnt make me feel very good. Makes me rethink his character. He comes off as that sweet but somewhat creepy guy whos afraid of the girl.... aparently I misjudged him. We fight too much, maybe we shoulda just left it at friends. I feel like damned if i do damned if i dont. I like to party but I gave it up for the most part cuz he didnt feel comfortable with it, but then he goes out and does it too. The worlds full of hypocrites. I feel that faze commin on again where i just sit around and listen to fuckin tear your ass up music and hit the bottle when no ones around. Every aspect of my life just falls apart.